12.o8.o6___________* ilurvveeu

2009-06-04T00:15:00.002+08:00

Hehe. bibi today dunno why so high. keep singing loud loud.

Enjoy the video. =)

2009-06-02T03:22:00.003+08:00

Haha. yoyo. went to school today.

To my suprise. saw Mavis and Yoshi and ta-dah.

We took a really nice gatsby video. Wahahahahahaz.

here's the video. =)

2009-05-25T10:51:00.002+08:00

Hello. this weekend was spent at yoshi 21st birthday. haha. was there at the preparation part. was quite fun yet tiring. needa make all those streamers and moving of stuffs around. then on saturday the rest of the rovers came. xm, mavis and benji came in the morning to help up. was quite fun as well in the kitchen. after which when the rest of the rovers and nightfall came. it was pure boozing. haha. tequila plus hoegarden plus vodka plus baileys is surely a toxic concotion as it clearlys knock out more than 3 person that night. here's some photo evidence =D

Kenneth and marwin hug together despite not knowing each other really well.

and kenneth emoing the night away hugging the balloon.

anyway it was really fun the whole birthday party. can't wait to organise another rovers chalet or something like that. haha. maybe less drinking. >.<

2009-05-14T00:21:00.001+08:00

arghhh..i can't enter my blog.
apparently there's some dunno what problem.
cannot access other as well.
=(
sad sad

2009-05-13T01:42:00.001+08:00

opps. forget to upload this photo.

was down for the recee. not in the photo is stanley and aaron.

lols. it was kinda of a sucess. manage to get free ride out as well by a nice lorry uncle.

yepps. thats it.

2009-05-13T01:18:00.002+08:00

hohoho, here's a picture to show how far we will go trying to promote on FO booth. haha. me being the grim reaper in the photo lead the year 2 to give out flyers at the station.

lols. hope we will get a very good response. =D

hmmx, and here's a picture what i eat at the dog farm aka work place.
haha. like prisoner sia. take one plate then someone will dump the food inside.

and yepps, lets rob some bangala consturction worker one day. look at the amount of spar they have. anyway thats the second lorry, the first one is in front.

muhahahahhaz...*evil grin*

anyway baby is starting to work le. hope that she won't get too tired.

jia you girl girl.

2009-05-08T00:49:00.002+08:00

arlow. this few days have been down at SP to help up in FO booth. hmmx, here's two photos of our guys hard at promoting the event. The result was vevry good i should say. their one day amount was equal to our 3 days. =D

Thanks to some enthu year one as well such as lynn, Cheryl, Khai...and many more. have already paid up for the camps le. >.<

just don't understand the point where some will take this FO Booth lightly.

its a matter or success or failure for the rest of the year.

never mind. hope that will learn to wake up soon.

yay. girl girl found a job at Starhub le. some is backend one. not those front line staff. =)

but sianz leh. she will be at eunos. so far. maybe i should get a job around there too!

aiyo. the new job that tammy girl until now haven't call me back leh. guess i needa to nudge her a call tml le.

anyway tml i will be in a cloak promoting the event. haha. hope that it might somehow help up ba. jia you everyone. its the last day.

-AnDy

2009-05-05T02:08:00.002+08:00

This week was spent quite meaningfuly i guess? manage to earn some money. yay. even though quite sianz course 90% of it need to be save up to pay debts. hehe. hmmz, attend RTT meeting conduct by sharon. overrall its really great la. can see that she have prepared alot for the meeting. maybe through more experience she can process her thoughts and put her words better. but its a meeting well done. haha. here's a photo of the meeting. it was really lively with us again. haha. must stand on chair to talk one. =D

Went for this haunted place round singapore recee thing. cheng was our lorry driver. he's a safe and efficent driver. not bad. but sometimes he damn blur cock. haha. like forget to turn on engine then drive off le. =) LOLS. but some of the place quite sianz la. some place still quite exciting. like the hillview mansion even though its demolish le. but great la. macham like adventurers seeking out the history of the place like that.

-picture of big tomb of mount pleasent. although its much smaller

compared to the bukit brown de.

and here's some unglam photos that make my day. >.<

haha. there's nic acting i dunno what and pei shan the mian bao chao ren face.

anyway baby came and pei me today to bring choya for hair cut. now her hair is really really short. haha. don't look like her. but quite cute la. now she dun look like dog le. more like a little mouse deer. kekez.

next few days will start war le. FO booth is coming. good luck everyone.

yay. =D

-AnDy

2009-04-29T02:44:00.003+08:00

some photos of my trip scaling Mt Ophir. was really fun with the gang of peeps namely liu lang zi. haha. u know who u are and i'm gonna make this gang bigger. haha. start saving up or u will have to rob a bank later. haha. >.<

anyway the photo where pei shan is trying to be the "dustbin" teddy bear is priceless. haha. just look at her face. heeee =D

2009-04-29T02:20:00.005+08:00

aloha! =)
today went for PT session again.
the group of year one turning up was a great sign as usual.
and of course the graduates. haha. still have 4 plus special guest appearance from benji.
it was fun i would say. block catching makes me crawl like crazy. me and aaron turn it into infiltration game instead.

This few days have a hell lots of thoughts about my future going through my mind. what if i do this or that. but shit it, finally giving up hope on thinking what the future might hold. like what shan have said, just do what my heart tells me to. end up i have sent in my application. don't know if they will shorlist me yet. =

baby got a funny problem with her ears. consequences of scratching too much! aiyo. thats such a silly illness. anyway. its just fucking pain to the point that she can't sleep. past night have waited long before to confirm she have dooze off already. get well soon ok? and remember to apply ur medicine regularly. (:

money money money. i have yet another serious problem with money. i think i have fucked up someway back then and now i'm in a shit loads of debt. all critically needed to be return. oh man, i just need to strike a small 4D. lols. have been living on measely save up money this few weeks. even if i need to eat like lets say a dinner at a coffeeshop have to be plan in advance. suck man.
working in banquet is not helping much either. first i have to be bark like a dog. second all those serving and moving things is a load of shit heavy work that i reckon them to employ bangalah instead. Third is the PRC people working attitude there isn't helping much either.
hiaz, miss the days working in bank. although its more mudane and boring. at least there is a steady income pouring in. plus so much incentives.
I WANT TO GET OUT OF MY ECONOMIC MELTDOWN NOW!!! ahhhhhhhhhh.

things that people have commented have made me doubtful of my plan and actions. fucked with that. is it really hard trying to establish a system that graduates come back to support? yes, it might be hard in the past as every single person doesn't seems to return and i could sadly proclaim them dead. i don't ask much. just come down for an events or two. PT would do just fine. come on man, i've seen people in my batch just aka-da-de-bra, poofing off into the air but seriuosly, we know that they are not that busy yet to not even commit 2 hours of their 166hours a week. u've question me on this new system and yet u encourage me to continue to keep up this trend. such an irony. how can i ever let my juniors know that it is perfectly right to come back and help without even me myself helping in it? or rather i said my batch of people. nvm. no use arguing it now. suck.

...

nothing to say now. going to work tml at the dog farm again. signing off.

2009-04-24T02:15:00.002+08:00

Haha. its have been so long since i update this blog. muhahahaz. i'm offically going to wake it up again!

yay. gonna update about my life with lotsa photos. its been a hectic but fun one last month. was touring indonesia to thailand and malyasia. yay.

so this is the indo photo! nice resort with good sunset. went with one of my best bro. haha. the best thing is that it serve nice AnW. the authentic one where u can't find in anywhere else be it malaysia or thailand. because look at the float! thats the right way man. smooth creamy with lotsa ice-cream. and it cost sing dollar like 1 plus?

will update more about other trips some other time. oh ya. the massage for 2 hours cost sing dollar exactly 10dollars! hahaha. shiok!

F.O is coming man. have a great amount of freshman. they are fun la. haha. but still not as crazy. hee. only time will reveal their true inner self.

Hmmx, to all the current rovers out there. jia you and jia you!

will be there for all of you. =)

lalala.

anyway just a promotion.

there is a Scout Youth Forumn in Thailand during the May holiday for a week.

and the total expenses for lodging, food and air tickets is just 280buck!!!!!!!!!!

no kidding shit. haha. its cheap.

call me if u intrested ar.

anyway that stupid pig watching movie now with friends. lols. so cute. still message me ask permisson.

hee. thats sweet la. aiyaya. still need to spent another 1 hour more before movie end. hmmx. thats all. will update REAL soon. yayness.

-anndy.ou

2008-10-21T02:51:00.002+08:00

its 0251hrs now.
couldn't sleep.

in like an hour time i will be leaving singapore for thailand jamboree.
hiaz. was quite excited but now i'm feeling . . .
dunno why?

anyway thanks baby for sending me off. by the time you read this i will be at thailand already. (:

will take care of myself. i'm a big boy boy le. yay.

hope everything will be well for me.
haven't finish up reading on SWP. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

ciaos singapore.

scoutingly,
Andy Ou

2008-09-16T22:42:00.002+08:00

so many words to pen down but i can't.

i felt so low, no motivation to a single stuff.
even work today did not went as well.
the coffee taste bad.
food feels bland.

i can't take it anymore.

i think i know and i understand why partly you felt this way.
its all my fault.
if i have not been such a failure in life then things wouldn't change as it is.
you've really sacrifice alot for me. i don't blame you for blaming or hating me.
things just go so fast and yepps, life change and varies alot but mine is too drastic that i think maybe you can't take it for the mean time.

don't know whats got into me.
i actually cried two times. in the office when i'm typing and on the bus.
was still trying to be happy, smiling, singing until i sang the song än jing by Jay.
the lyrics really was like whamp right into my face.

going round just can't get you right out of my mine. worst still whenever i see those cute penguins. i have to force myself the whole day to smile and be myself.
lucky ying yong was with me. at least i can be myself when i'm with him.
i'm sorry baby, i can't be the man you want me to be. i am a failure and nothing else. i can't even comfort you when you're at your lowest. i am simply what you say. mei yo yong. mei yo yong.

the least that i can say which to be honest to myself is that the last 25months have not change. i love you. i've fall to deep to pull myself out from this abyss.

there's much more to say. but this feelings can't be pen down. i just felt really really bad, confuse.

.....

.....

i'm sorry baby shan.

with everlasting love,
Andy - mei yo yong

2008-09-12T11:15:00.002+08:00

hmmz, in office working now.
at UBS.

bank job are taxing and tiring.
haha. all the numbers are making my eyes mad.

all the website is blog here.
facebook, web messenger, hotmail.
bleahz.

hmmx, so much thing is on my mind now. have been thinking.

anyway its friday and its yayness day. finally get to wear jeans.
pei shan finding me later. going to treat her something nice for dinner.

thats all. got to get back to work.

anyway happy birthday to randy.

and especially to my guin guin girl (:
papa love you.

hehe.

ciaos.

2008-09-03T01:30:00.001+08:00

haha. first aid course!
yayness. tml is the test le.
love you (:

2008-08-08T00:18:00.002+08:00

NOTE FOR THOSE ATTENDING - PROJECT RIGEL 2008

Date: 9- 10 August 2008
Venue: Jalan Bahtera Adventure Centre (JBAC)
Muster time: 0800hrs
Fee: S$10.00/-

Here's the list of MUST bring items:

1.) Full uniform with headgear x1 *those without peakcap bring your beret along first.
2.) Track pants *for high elements
3.) Sports shoe
4.) mess tin, fork, spoon, drinking mug.
5.) water bottle
6.) personal medication

other than that you could bring other stuffs which u thing will be essential for u like a torch or whatever.
Be Prepared. (:

for the 9th, please be at boon lay control station at 0700hrs.
there will be a bus sending u in and it is coming at 0715hrs. so please please don't be late.
the person to be the point of contact is winston. i bet u all have his number.

other than that, lets be in our best behavior and attitude as we will be representing the crew.

ciaos.

see you at JBAC.

For the reference of:
-winston
-Kenneth
-Bryan
-Nicholas Ng
-Melissa

2008-08-07T00:25:00.002+08:00

so many thing has past since i last blog. haha.
I know i know, but its not rotting ya.
just super uber busy.

anyway just some updates on what i did from lasttime till now.

past few months was really busy with the WSJ bid, go to practice 3 days a week at HQ.
everyday see the same old face until now never see very funny. Worst is always see that melissa.
wahahahahaz. she's my happy slap friend. (:
practice was not tough i would say, but really put in a lot of commitment and went for it.
Then finally went to Korea. was not really that excited in the beginning, but was wrong ba.
Day 1 to 3 was mudane. we the fries will try to sneak out with every possible time we have.
went to the love land and see all those R(A) statues. was fun la. then the taxi driving speed is 200km/h de.
The rest of the days was super tiring and an eye opener.
I would imagine how wide my parents eyes would be when they see all the scouts there. haha.
all so old one can? and they tell me its a children thing.

the conference was great la. luckily got people like marcus that kept me in the loop on what they are discussing about.
Then need to wear this translation device where at realtime someone will translate what the person is talking.
then when at free time will have to put on that BIG BIG smile for all to see. talking to delegates and blah blah.
When i'm on duty the first day, we were station at the lobby la. so the japanese was camping outside for people to alight the bus. we singaporean kaisu natrually camp inside and wait for them. give them alot of freebies, bags, keychain, caps, merlion key chain and the list goes on and on. Then at the booth is worst, need to strike up a convi on the bid. haha. macham like salesman.

was fun la. every evening will have a mega function. one even got fire works, the other one got Laser show. Really salute Korean scout man. Then all the meals is super nice one. got salmon sashimi to good wine. when i say good, its really good. Then the day of the performance came. really freaking give it all man. when i'm watching the video i just cried. i dunno. keep holding back cause we going out le. all the hard work and its like. fcuk it man. go up the stage, swing like no body business. some give you empty stares and u just don't care. act until like they very high.

Losing was the worst part. the chain crying effect came in. and all those other country just came and take photos of us. was quite low then la. its like really our only chance to make scouting in singapore stronger in a sense. but was glad that we've shown what small association like us can match up with the big japan ba. win the hearts of so many countries. but scouting is scouting. i'm proud that my leaders didn't make the wrong choice.

now "bamp!!!"

back to my mudane life. first week back in school sucks. everything is korea.
just want to meet up with the fries gang. when see them at the camporee super high la.
and i miss jouis. haha. until now still haven't see him lehz.

other than that nothing much la ba. oh ya. i dislocate my arm again.
haha.
good job andy! and it is dislocated by sneezing.
LOL. could you believe it.

today just end poly 50. the last time i ever really run was the past poly 50.
was quite surprised that i can even tahan until the end la.
run run and run. everytime i at pei shan station i very stress. cause see her want to smile.
but i just want to breathe. haha. so will look away.
sorry dear, i couldn't be the one encouraging you.
LOL. i'm dying as well.

everytime i run i told myself i must give my best.
i can't stop
i can't give up
i can't be slow
cause the scouting name is at stake.
haha. the word,"SCOUTS" was so bigly shown and written in my arm.
so i will recite the scout promise whenever i start running.
but i'm glad (:

now maybe some private stuffs about me and that special her.
haha. long time we have not really argued le. maybe just irritated with each other at time.
but as again. we're mature enough to handle it le ba.
then ya lo. it was all so smooth sailing. whenever i'm down she will never fail to pick me up la.
and that special day is coming so soon. hehehehehehe.
book a quite nice place for dinner. planning to hit the flyers for the first time.
and i've thought for a perfect gift for her. the problem is i dun have time to go see see look look la.
everyday see her leh.

as quoted by other people comments on her, it makes me so... HAHAHA (: sweet.
it goes like this,"Pei shan is a nice girl or you are lucky to have a nice gf."
ta-dah (: i've got taste what!

anyway was thinking about it la.

am i good enough for her?

arghhh, shuns. never mind. maybe i am la.

(:

anyway girl. hehe.
i love you <3.

2008-06-19T01:15:00.003+08:00

wooooooo. has been so freaking busy this few weeks.
lol. don't even have time to post up my final "emo" post.

any way, i feel so accomplish this few months since i last blog.
finally step down as president from sprovers, even got the chance to play my part in introducing some scouting related stuffs to the crew.
BTC, no matter what other people says about me, i feel that i've grown up le. able to lead and serve and give better instructions. Even managed to play mind games and stuffs like that to the trainee. was quite a motivation when i know i'm the best instructor la. ya lo.
but sadly this time round again, didn't manage to add in more scouting elements to BTC ba.
then is korea trip. haha. freaking confirm going already. plus all the dance is finalise. i like the group so much, the old to the young is quite high one la. then the young is like everyone can click one. Simply love SiJie as my dancing partner, kenneth as well but he's EX. haha, but anyway, we two will usually be the siao one, keep shouting. even the yeung ching scout ask me why i keep myself enthu every round and throughout.

i feel much more of a purpose in life le.

SHE makes me feel too...

our offical 22nd month together was spent in sarimbun, wasn't anything much romantic but i tried to compensate back with a date out. the date was suppose to be romantica but the stoopid movie dun have at least a decent seat left. was really happy la, it has been so long we have really quarell, even with small mis understanding we will either shaf it aside or just settle it. And i feel we're trusting each other more and mroe ba. you know those crap when couples even tgt for years then they will argue,"wah! so long tgt le still don"t trust me!" lol. its entirely bullshit la, trust must pei yang one. yepps, i trust her and she trust me despite all those eyecandy craps.

anyway, we've grown up le ba. 2 mnnths to 2 years! OMFG!!! ANDY!!! u're with a girl for 2 years? my mom ask that but of course minus the OMFG la. ha. anyway when times when we didn't even exchange sweet talks like i love you it doesn't means we don't care. We still love each other as much right?

anyway today have a really big suprise. (small actually) LOL. u know girls like to go to those online spree. yepps, i go with her to collect from the post office. then i snatch the item and open it. and i was like ..... !!! there's my name on some black piece of thing and a chain on it. then she was like.. this guitar pick is for u!!! Oh my tian, its a freaking customize guitar pick with my name leh.
Thanks baby, it was really a sweet and thoughtful gift.

yepps, anyway, got to study hard le. exams coming. then it will be KOREA!!!!!!

**i'm offically hook on human UFO catching game! when ,"te te te ne de ne te ne ..." start, pls cover your head (:

2008-05-24T01:19:00.002+08:00

yay. i'm gonna blog some emo thinking entry again! (:

This questions goes out to all earthlings with feelings and someone you treasure in your life.

"Have you ever appreciate and give gratitude in life that you have the chance to open your eyes the next day u wake up instead of complaining how stressful hetic of whatever life is?"

really, think about that sentence before u sleep tonight.

this thought occur to me when i have a bleed nose like yesterday???
she was helping me to wipe away the blood and i can open with one eyes only.
but only with my one eyes, i was actually really looking at her. it makes me think that what if one day some mishap happen to me or her and that i can't even think of the last word or last glimpse to her. dunno why, so i take a deep deep look, trying to imprint that very moment in my mind. its sort of like a mind photo memory think.

she ask,"why are u staring at me?"
i replied,"nothing, just looking at you."

but deep in me i wish to say all those silly little things. on how i really appreciate her for being part of my life, for being just right there at that moment. thats really a priceless moment.

anyway, i don't have to say who is she, u should know right? (:

so take a time tonight, close ur eyes, think of those loves one u really treasured and be grateful that u can still be there to love them and feel their love. (anyway, try to think what is the last thing u said to them and the things u do! , u probably won't remember all!) dont' wait for moments where u will really regret for what u have not done when u can.

loves,
My Life.

2008-05-14T22:11:00.004+08:00

don't know why but lots of thoughts have been going through my mind tonight.
any readers out there, has anyone thought about why are we here? on EARTH? apart from religous crap, whats ur purpose?

Thinking about it, humans are such a fragile creature. every single one is standing and breathing from the same ground and air, yet there is still so much suffering round the world. Have been reading lotsa bout the globe itself, so many things are left unsolved, Global warming, never ending poverty, human dying, animals push to the point of extiction. Have we really been caught up so much in our buzz of life that we lost our basic touch of care?

talking about me, i just don't understand why i'm here? i remembered i've spent studying for my past 18 years of my life and after that, i'll be spending the rest of my life joining in the rat race. Is this my purpose. I admit i'm not any good samritians but i do feel the slight tinge of sadness when i see the myanmmar cyclone, china earthquake, and the continue struggling of people living in ever poverty. If it was you, Won't You?

feel that i still haven't reach the point of life when i'm totally in control of myself. Pei Shan told me something that day, i was not a good president when i'm in the Ex-Co. i didn't reply that day. maybe due to my male ego in me. but i agree. i'm not discipline enough. not being able to task, pioritise meself. and i lost my goal easily.

but...i'm changing.

there's many people who have has touch my life, who made me go on a turning point in my life, they are the ones that i dunno, some that is so dear to me; Thanks to those that have help me change in mylife;

Mr Pandian, my ex-coach who left me with a quote that has been etch in my mind ever sine. "endure what that cannot be endure is then true endurance.",

Elizabeth Song, my good sister who made me understand how to be more mature and analyatical.

My parents, who made me so mad at them that i just want to prove something to them with whatever means i can,

the old man with white hair at AHM 2004, who told me,"young man, the finish line is near, don't ever give up.",

The Irwins, who dedicate their entire life to conservation and...

...my dearest girl, Who made me understand that i'm the man i should always be. Simply loves you <3

blah, such an emo entry. many things running through my mind, still thinking :|

2008-05-11T21:44:00.002+08:00

Hi i'm back. (:
want to pen down my thoughts for this wonderful week.

My family except for me when for holiday and i'm HOME ALONE!!!
haha. Friday me and baby went for audition (yay! we got in) and by the time we come back. my parents leave already. It was quite a close one. i feel that they might forget to maybe take things and will come back so i ask baby to wait at the 11 floor first! haha. true enough dad came back and was off. and a hell loads of wild time awaits me for a week. =)

me and baby take a quick rest and went prawning. boo hoo hoo. i'm a lousy prawner. haha. all the prawn that took my bait run away one. then baby so pro. pull then the prawn come out le. heeheeheez. prawny girl. we were talking about what buying supper and eat. haha. just so full le. how to even eat? reach back home at lets say 0400hrs and prawny girl say want to bath first but fell asleep the moment her head touches the bed. haha. went to did lauandry and sleep. heez. i feel so much like a househusband. and a good one too! =P
was trying hard to squezze in to bed cause prawny girl snatch up every space already. haha. pig.

morning wake up, went to market to get some food stuffs. haha. the feeling damn shiok. like really grown up le. go market then we eat breakfast. went NTUC to get more food and back home again. baby was allowed to sleep but she doing her NRC stuffs la. Then i was preparing the food for Teppanyaki. evening came and we started our main event. haha. quite fun la. we act until like the real teppanyaki chef like that. cook on the spot. the food damn many and lotsa of variety. includes, tow gay, 3 different kind of mushroom, soup, chicken, shabu shabu, sukiyaki pork, tofu, flower crab, tiger prawn, sotong and salmon. damn full!!! watch a movie at home after that. planning to sleep one but i suggest go play arcade. haha. play like madness lo. there the machine 50cents only. then after that was suppose to go home but we end up bowling. haha. was said to be 1 game and end up 2 games was played. hehe. fun fun!!!
went home boy boy did some housechores first before snuggling up to sleep.

Next morning wake up damn shag already. it was sunday! we went out, actually want to bring baby to a very famous restaurant for breakfast. the san lo he fen super nice one but we reach there close already. so we went to JP and eat at bento box instead. ok. the meal was quite sastisfying! went to shop for wei jie present and played some arcade again. 0430 finally reach and we went for our back massage appointment. haha. baby not use to it, so she didn't really like the massage. ok la, i admit, it was quite painful! haha. see see! u need me to help u massage de worx =P
only ME knows the pressure u want. haha.
then we went to East Coast. hehe. play lilliput. its actually an indoor mini golf. really fun. got all the interactive machines! like the golf ball can go into the tank and come out or got cable car bring it up! haha. ok la. even though baby cheated to win. hehex =P but she play better golf la. i tend to be more cho lo. haha. use so much strength. got once the ball even flew out. haha >.<
we went to seafood centre after that and have dinner there. ate a big crab crab, mantou, claypot tofu (i want hot-plate one, order wrongly) and a mai pian prawn. the meal was nice la. the price of the meal was even nicer. haha. almost hit 3 digits. almost choke on the crab i ate earlier. haha. went home and yepps >.<

morning came and its monday! time for school. sent baby off to school first. haha. she commented like i sending her to work like that >.< so sweet right. lalala. my time to spent at her house now. went over after school, intended to sleep till tuesday only but end up i sleep till wednesday.

thursday came and have a BBQ at my house. only have 4 of us. but its good enough. or else dun have place for all to sleep. bought alot of top quality stuffs for BBq. and u know waht! its outside my corridor! OMG la. my house quite dirty after that. we went crazy during washing up. it suddenly rain and we just say. come on come on, lets go play in the rain. haha. super high can! like young kids like that. so thats it le ba. haha. parents coming back the next day. hehe.

anyway, i've officially spent 7days and 6nights with baby le. hiaz. really misses u. and it was really fun having u around. all those silly silly things u do. wahahahahahaz! i enjoy myself and i hope u too (:

LOVE pei shan~* <3

2008-04-17T23:29:00.003+08:00

I did figured out that my blog was kinda boring without pictures posted on so here's some of my past few memories. and its really sweet. i love you baby.

2008-04-11T05:38:00.002+08:00

back with my rants. haha.

This few weeks was really bored and especially stressful.
Actually got back my appeal and it was successful. Was quite happy and yet quite afraid. really dunno what the future will be like for me =|

Was rotting back at home this few weeks without ITP. was really irritated with my parents this few days. Really really irritated. when i go out they will rant about, wha, habit, how to study and all this shit la. Come on man, school haven't even start. and they tell me to study 3 weeks in advance of school re-opening. WTH. how the hell can i study myself. If i know how to do all those stuffs, i wouldn't even have fail and . . . it makes no sense la. and they are so paniky than me.?!?!? hiaz, one hell of a parent. does it really make sense that if i return home early everyday and stay at home during weekend then i will get a good grade??? LOL.

this few weeks was tough for me as well. don't know why we have small tiffs here and there. Ok la, i admit, some of it is my fault la. Really don't like all those silly little squabbers here and there. Things has already change and well, i love it. even accomponied her to far east to cut hair today but the shop was not open. Ate pepper lunch for dinner and i'm loving it. haha. Beef is soooooooo good. next two days will be staying with her over at her place. hope that she will be happy (:

actually i really do cherish this relationship. how we got tgt was really quite impossible le. LOL. funny. and all the things we have done, camps, holidays, staying at each other house, cooking for her family, meeting every day, blah blah blah, can't be forgotten de. Its really very sweet and nice memories. Whatever happen, i just hope this realtion could continue on as long as it takes ba.

Was thinking about if one day we really not tgt. i could strongly say i can't move on ba. really can't. it is my longest and most "professional" realtionship. have put all my heart and soul to it le.

nothing more le. have alot of things to achieve. but here are some top main piorities!!!

1.) Oversea trip with baby

2.) My good grades and pleasing my house two panicky souls

3.) nothing much, maintaining the relationship?!? haha.

oh yah, i could for-see there will be more quarells to come? i dunno. i'm really afraid i can't commit lotsa times for baby as before. but i will try to accomodate as well (:
Now waiting for my timetable to plan out all the ways to have a balance lifestyle between, work, relation, family and studies. yepps.

Thats all for now, until then.

and hey, i just drove again. Hyunai Matrix, it was fun crusing at gear 4 though =D

until then.......

2008-03-18T23:19:00.002+08:00

it has been a messy messy month for me. so much has happen in my life.
First, i'm really very glad that major event is over. it is really like a burden being put off my chest. finally, i am free from my responsibility. and am quite glad that i have give it all the way.

many things has been screwed up in my life.

My relationship ain't that good. we did have quarells be it work or personal but it still ain't gonna help us a bit. But anyway, the last quarell in school was quite good i could say. i can finally cry out all that i have kept inside me for so long. but anyway, whatever what happen. i still love u as much as before. sorry that recently i can't be the clown, goof-ing around your life. hiaz. i feel very confuse at that moment. sorry girl. just bear with me for this moment. and hey. thank you for peing me when i'm down.

My studies ain't good either. not afraid to confess here but i have officially been removed from my course and that is equal to not studying in SP anymore. now trying for an appeal and i hope it go through. if there was this chance. hell yeah, i will do it. really dissapointed. mom has pledge 25K for me to see me through UNI. come on. let me freaking get through this.

My family stuffs ain't good either. have not been spending much time with them. hiaz. ): always argue and shout about. aiyo. dunno la. *its getting better, at least we talk.

recently someone make an impact in my life. she is my sister elizabeth. she told me quite alot of stuffs about me and it actually makes me reflect on my self. more self-awareness ba. thanks for being blunt when u comment about me. hiaz. i must change.

lots of things to do and i'm a man on a mission.
until then.

2008-02-20T23:31:00.002+08:00

Hi yoz. Daily rants of my life.

Current status is on attachment. I'm with Land Transport Authority.
I have my personal cubicle with a computer, phone, desk, cabinet and etc...
I am currently taking up two projects, one of them is a major one where i have to develop a program for something which can't be listed online. Its a full one so i'm also know as the "software developer" working with client such as QB which function your current EZlink cards.

Sounds cool?

haha. but it totally sucks. kinda stress. even though i would say that working with a government body give u more flexibility such as official work starts at 0830 and u can arrive at 0900, lunch is from 1230 - 1330 which apparently informally its 1215-1345. haha. but i'm stress. >.<

Finally i'm dropping more and more reponsibilities off my shoulders. Left with major event now. I'm glad. Really glad that i've this bunch of really committed guys who continues strives for more progress. dun need any prompting or whatever. What i would like to say is that i really appreciate all of your efforts. Sincerly. survival quest is just over, maybe wanna talk mroe about it.

Hmmx, everyone i dunno why. i got the old feelings back where everyone just work as a team. even xue min is making a really good effort in chairing this event despite being thrown into this the very last minute. It really feels good those good old days. But the interview was really sucks. i'm VERY DISSAPOINTED with them if u know what i'm referring to.

Firstly is on Pei Shan's case. She just felt that she dun wan to continue in Ex-Co because of her reponsibilities. one way u all say u all dun want to force, then why bother to give her so many negative feedbacks. If i'm the one in the cross fire, I'll make sure all of u will get snub by my reply what. u ask if what SP Rovers can gain if she's in NRC. what i would like to say is that primary facts is that she is serving the rovering community as a whole, not SP Rovers, so pls pls pls pls pls dun say things like "You Never YING SHUI SHI YUAN" wtf has it got to do with it? come one la. u are doubting someone again. let me quote what u all have said,"not being in Ex-Co doesn't means that there's no contribution, there's still other stuffs as an odinary member." so can't she just be a member and contribute. What u really say i feel that its really very low for what the words has have come out from "HER" which i once respected very much. dissapointed.

Ok, back to topic, the secondary topic is she can some how get more PR things going on if in case there's a need. come on la, RSLC PRO just set up, u sure can get things going on so fast mehx? still need her de lo. and i would like to say PEI SHAN and ME save SP Rovers ASS once again for attending HQ events if not who are we? Phantom troop? just an SP club? not even scouts at all?

For my interview, we talk about the age term of Rovers. Sometimes in HQ, i feel quite ashame to wear our uniform la. seriously. pple at the back call us an adventure club. THERE'S NO SCOUTING ELEMENTS AT ALL!!!You call building some lame flag staff as scouting? come on la. ALL SPROVERS do is TRAIN AND TRAIN AND TRAIN AND TRAIN AND TRAIN!!!NEW INSTRUCTORS LE THEN WILL CONTINUE WITH NEXT BATCH IN TRAIN AND TRAIN AND TRAIN AND TRAIN!!! almost for 3/4 of the whole semester is train and train. Pls review your rovering motto, its fellowshipping and service to others. Where's the fellowsihpping? where's the service?

Whats more, i have pple as young as lets say 20 years old as my ALUMNI! haha. ALUMNI mentor the current. come on la. have a life. your concept and everything is so wrong. no dobut the hard skill is there, where's your scouting values? and hey, youth is from the age 18-25. you aren't even fully maturely develop, just like me, learning and whats mroe still, pple here just have 3 simple year of rovering and thats it.

Funny still, i have pple from the RSLC saying that they wanna buy an uniform with a tie and coat of arms. If u dare to put it own i say u very powerful. Haha. for everybody;s info, Rovering there's only RSL, ARSL, Rovers Chair (apparently is me who is still wearing a scarf) and Rovers member. So what makes an RSLC able to put on a tie? i wonder.

there's more to say. much more. i hate this. i hate it. I HATE IT!!!
just a piece of advice:"We as scouts is still under the association of the singapore scouting community, ITS NOT SINGAPORE POLY!!! so pls, think about it. u know what i'm talking about."

and hey, "SHE" doubted me again. i'm FREAKING DISSAPOINTED. she ask me so u think u during NS or after NS will still come back and help la. I said a very definite YES but u know what? She say, we shall SEE. HEY HEY HEY. given ur position, u've just said this. YOU FREAKING DOUBT ME! so pls in the future, pls dun talk about your freaking philosphy of what here is a training ground. so it trains u to be like this? i wonder yet again.

till now, ta-dah.

2008-02-03T17:56:00.000+08:00

thank you baby!

this trip was another turning point for us.
i have loads of fun during the whole trip. =D
it has bring us together even more.
and remember ar. my photos horr!!!

did i mention to you that,

when u wear formal, it makes feel a sense of security. hehes. =)

I LOVE YOU LOADS DARLING!

peishan

2008-01-31T03:55:00.000+08:00

hmmx. can't seems to sleep now. guess i kinda take a long nap this noon.
dunno why but just want to dedicate this song to my precious shan shan (:

You're My No.1

anyway here's another sweet sweet poem for you (:

A special world for you and me
A special bond one cannot see
It wraps us up in its cocoon
And holds us fiercely in its womb.

Its fingers spread like fine spun gold
Gently nestling us to the fold
Like silken thread it holds us fast
Bonds like this are meant to last.

And though at times a thread may break
A new one forms in its wake
To bind us closer and keep us strong
In a special world, where we belong.

tata <3

2008-01-30T10:26:00.000+08:00

wohaa~!

this few weeks is hiaz. Exam and more exam and Major Event and SQ.
why can't i have a break???? oh well. sick of it. Voting coming right up plus AGM.

really dissapointed about a few things back there but oh well!

was really happy when i work at mount Faber. got a good supervisor plus with aaron there! haha. its totally hilarous. my relationship (friends k! haha. not gay) with Aaron have kinda improve. lasttime we don't talk so much de. now we even go for swims. so sweet right? (:

i'm really scared i will get drop out. but what the hell. just don't think about it la. no use crying over spill milk le.

i think i might have found an avenue to start my humanitarian + 800km work already!!! right now i think there will be liz+siao+shan and me. if we really did it we might earn like 2million for the kids in third world country. i dunno? but things are not finalise yet. yay.

there is so much to learn in life. i think i've woke up from my long slumber. after this exam. i want to transform. haha. yay yay. get more organise and wooha! ME here i come!

i dunnno who read my blog but oh well! just an official announcement:

i'll be out of town with pei shan on the 1st~3rd of FEB 08, sat and sun. We will be on board star cruise so if there's anything that whoever will want to ask or talk to me about, please sent me via mail i will try to get back to you or things about Major Event to Aaron Koh. yay. thats all! i'm really excited. bleahz~*

tata. thats all <3

2008-01-15T01:25:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY SHAN SHAN PRINCESS!!! (:

her birthday was really fun for her; for me as well. heehee.
have been like day dreaming for the whole week for saturday to come.
met up with Aaron early to plan shan a suprise. then wait for everyone come lo.
haha. we went up her blk the highest floor then she take lift up. yay.
she look happy =D

went to eat at a restaurant near her house. was quite cool. like family reunion like this. was kinda high la. crapping here and there. then we went zouk. hmmz, wasn't that nice as i expected but the drinks was great. 1 for 1. yay. dance with shan was perfect. haha. natural dancing bod. lalala. keep telling her that its her birthday, lets dance at the highest point but she shy shy.

Everyone got tired and then went home lo. most came to shan house to rest. hmmx, they say only me and shan slept like pigs. perhaps is farmilar surounding ba. wake up went to MOI. probarbly one of the best soft skill course till now. Give her the NUM tank top. ah hahaha. her eyes open big big. yay. then we wear the same to cafe del mar.
cafe del mar was cool man. the inside to the outside. but the $$$ was cool as well. lol.

have lunch there with shan. our meal was perfect top up with a lobster bisque soup. then as we have spent 100 bucks then we are entitled to go outside and lay on those beds. haha. its literally bed . . . on the beach. looks cool but it was hot. we weren't prepared for this. she didn't have her bikinis and i'm wearing a really buckly burms. i had white chocolate martini while she's so freaking scared of alcohol for the moment. haha. drink too much at zouk la.
playing "guess fist" with her. haha. she keep losing. WAHAHAHAHA!!!
went to tanjong beach and lay down to sleep. guess we're really really tired.

went home after that and ate with shan's family. haha. same restaurant and the uncle was funny. only this time, i'm more quiet. got boss around a.k.a shan's father. haha. quite nice la the meal. then after this went home and cut cake. heehee. we change and went out to meet y2 and sylvia. quite nice. Eski bar. sylvia was sweet enough to get her a gift. hmmx. and i had a rusty nail and flaming lambo with shan. haha. she feels so hot after that!!!

yepps, thats all, i stayed over at her house and we had a good night sleep.
happy sweet 19 darling. i love you.

just want to let u know. when i get u a gifts, its really not about the price. i know u love it then i will get it de. the price is another thing de la. just to "chong" you more abit. hehe. u don't want to know how i get those cash. was quite desprate back then.

but anyway, i hope u really love your MP4 and the tank top.
and remember when we turn 25 years old k? LOL.
WTH.
Simple loves . . .

2008-01-14T23:32:00.000+08:00

this is for you.

there are always more than a 100 reasons why i'm loving you.
and i'm just so touched when i see the 100 reason that you have write for me.
i didnt know i'm just so much to you.

in fact.
i'm so afraid of being with you last time
i tot i will choose the wrong person.
but guess time has prove me wrong.

you are the one who i'm truthfully loyal to till now.
you are the one who i can open up to you no matter what.
you are the one who i really am very honest to you
you are the one who i'm not afraid to tell you anything
you are the one who are as irritating as ever but i still love you no matter what.

i remember even i tell you that i'm thinking of someone after listening to a music, you didnt scold me or blame me but ask me not to next time. i think that the virtue of yours being so da fang!

i scare u will leave me one day.
i have been thinking of this day why u actually love someone that much.
is like u are bad last time. but i dont know how this relationship will actually last.
i gave to you that much and that is because it sort of a swore of love to me that i will love you till the end.

i put my trust in you.
to love you as much as i can give.
i hope we do treasure this relationship as much as possible.

and baby
thanks for everything you have done for me during my 19 bday
i'm really touched.
it really great and i love it!

PRECIOUS
I LOVE YOU SO!
MY LIFE EVOLVES WITH YOU AROUND!

2007-12-21T02:03:00.000+08:00

ahoy everybody! haha.

lotsa stuffs happen this few days especially this week.

starting to love rovers more and more. yay.

went to survival camp which is not really survival but that was fun. some photos are here. me and shan on our way back from ubin. hmmx, gary still owe me a photo of me roasting my chicken outdoor! OMG. the chicken was marvellous.

then went for SCDF first aid course. haha. was fun. played with some taping of the room, fake manequins and then doing dressing for each other. not mentioning trying out at fire extingusisher! went watch Warlord after that. was nice and we start the bi sha thingy. haha.

clubbing yesterday with rovers! hmmx, was fun. initially was to go to zouk but it was full housed, so went to MOS instead. open a chivas and drank 3 shots. dance with shan. haha. woo hoo. will upload some more photos soon.

gonna see them tml again. ha. annual camp at sentosa. see ya (:

did i mention that shan look exceptionally pretty last night? hehe. slurp~*

2007-11-26T01:43:00.000+08:00

hmmz, yet another tiring day over.
This few days my tummy is acting up again. really dunno whats going on in my stomach. I think there's some bugs in it. haha. Keep feeling hungry de la. then will get alittle squeasy. but the problem is, i've never stop eating leh!!!

today was selling PRATA. at the mission 4. Kinda dissapointed like the rest of them, didn't get to be film at all. more of a waitering service kinda thing. but hell, was kinda piss off with those mediacorp guys in the beginning but after much consideration, maybe just smiling and doing my best will be so much more fun. haha. opps, i spilled curry on shan's leg. >.<

Rovers came to suport us. The fact that they are willing to wake up and come to this god-forsaken place just to eat a prata which cost 2bucks is really touching. thanks guys, really appreciate it.
went to town after that. winston make over session. hmmx, his jacket was really nice. hiaz, i can't wear that through my life, i've broad shoulders. hehe.
ate curry chicken for lunch and continue shopping. haha. i lie to winston to look up at an aunty upskirt. ha. i told him is a pretty girl. he almost kill me. =)
then i got this urge to peirce my earhole back. actally wanted to do that long ago le. but then. yepps. i finally did it! stupid CHENG!!! u better go consider ar. haha. starting say want to do with me then back off. kick your ass ar!
went to rest at starbucks paragon. was better than i thought when i suggest the game of truth or dare. was laughing all the way. everyone was really happy and hey, thats one hell of an outing. its warmly and fun. then ada came along and we went toy's'rus. haha.
dear treated me to dinner and i slept at her house for a while. oh no. i almost miss the last train home.

thats is for today. next trip coming up:
Botanic garden. picnic will be fun.

has been wanting to do a special project. its really a tough journey ahead and i don't know that if i can able to prevail through. but its really something i want and i'm freaking passionate about it. thanks to ada and shan who are willinging to hear my rants and join in to this cause. i really want it to come through. for the cancer patients. yepps, i've failed alot in life, what and who i want to be. by the end of my poly years, i want to do something good, something great, something that is worth doing. Aaron and melissa, haha, hope both of you will join in as well, the more the merrier.

-Dare to dream **small people, big dreams**

2007-11-20T02:01:00.000+08:00

hey if u are reading this, pls dun misunderstood my msgs again.

this whole week has been really eventful, u know the thing of u msging him? i feel strange initially but i told myself that, oh well, he's still ur friend ma, cannot msg him mehz?
yepps, so that was like that lo.

then there was time when u were piss with me and u like msg him. during tuesday PT was the first one and then during investiture camp. it really feels, ARGGHHH. u understand ma. its like the feeling of being trap in the middle. there's no right or wrong in msging him what, but i just dun feel uncomfortable. anyway, i just told myself to hack care la, dun want to bring this matter up.

today afternoon i also saw those msgs, since morning de, i try to like act to u, show u i dun like that but oh well...
then at 2230 at night when i'm just beside u then you reply him again. its feels really quite sucky la. the more he reply things like pig or whatever. again, i tried to act sad to tell u how i feel but u turn around and fall asleep. then i tried to msg tell u how i feel, but yepps, it didn't get through again. finally can't really take it le so call u but then things didn't turn out as how it goes.

i really just want to let u know, i seriously don't like him!

no.1) if he is treating u as a friend, i hope he can talk like a friend. i seriously dunno what is his problem. i'm a guy eh, haha, how guys like talk to girl sweetly is "kan de chu de". i dunno, it just really feel weird la.

no.2)if a girl msg me from day till night, i dunno how you will feel but i just dun like the idea la. cause for me, i won't waste the whole day just by msging a girl de la.

hiaz, i'm really not paranoid but i just freakingly dislike him la.
cool down can?
i dunno if u understand how i feel but, it just dun feel good.

seriously.

hiaz. history is repeating again.

2007-11-16T23:29:00.000+08:00

Welcome back andy (:

hehe. have been in the hospital since yesterday.
was warded. this is how it goes.

4am: -woke up with a sharp pain on my stomach. tried to sleep but can't.
took some personal medication but still don't work. mum wake up and see me so suggest i go hospital. Called shann to pei me go cause so early in the morning.

6am: -at SGH AnE. was in pain but still smiling. thanks to shann for being there. at least someone for me to fool around, tried acting monkey but always got scolding from her. hehe. admitted to the observation ward. OMG. got 2 injections and one blood test sample. ouch. and then i am put on drip in case i need to go on sugery. suspected for having appendices. some funny stuff, the drip i can stop it but bending to a certain position. haha. then i act i got power to stop it, LOL. then kena scold again (:

1pm: -admitted to those hospital ward le. at least i'm in B2 class. not bad. hmmx, she pei me all the way until she got interview. nothing really special. got change into the blue colour hospital shirt and haha. kena poke at the buttock AGAIN. hmmx, got this moment when one of the male doctor and 2 female german doctors came. The male doc ask shann, you are his GF? then she yes. then the doc immediatly draw the curtain and said, oh then u can see this. WTH. haha. he checking my stomach and then kinda pull down my pants abit. shy leh. plus i'm like a guinea pig, kena poke here and there. haha. ada mei mei came when i was sleeping, woke up saw her and chatted. slowly winston came and then shann. haha. oh. aaron came in the noon too. thanks guys, for coming to see me. really really appreciate it.

7pm: -i think they wheelchaired me down for THEIR dinner. hiaz. i'm on those drip. in case for those who dunno, drip is actually salt water or glucose flowing into your blood stream through a needle. so you can't eat or drink. hiaz. see them eat i was like. OMG! freaking hungry. shann bought me a choc as a motivation. haha. looking forward to dis-charge.

1030pm:- the rest leave already. shann pei me side by side. lying on the bed. haha. chatted for some while. when she leaving was quite sad but she has pei me the whole day le. thanks baby. and yepps. we exchange our jackets to keep each other "company" (:

0330am:- woke up, felt lonely.

1000am:- mom came. haha. doc declared i'm fine. so means i can eat!!! finally after 34hours of no food and drinks. i ate 5 biscuits, 2milo, i kwaychap, 2 eggs and 1 fish porridge. i know its alot but u'll never understand the feeling of 34 hours with nothing. =D was discharged then.

hey shann, thanks for being there for me. worrying for me the whole time. i know i can be naughty and monkeying around but i will take care of myself de. waking up so freaking early, staying there doing nothing when i go for check up, sit beside my bd when i sleep, pei me talk, make me smile, all those things, thanks darling =D
you make my pain, go away.
really love you. and hey, don't sak silly qns like will i pei u if its u k.
isn't that obvious (=

lalala. food, here i come!

2007-11-14T00:27:00.000+08:00

Heya guys. have not been blogging for quite sometime now.
Life just pass on as usual. ha. nothing extraodinary.
dunno how to say but somehow didn't really my relationship well this few days.
but shucks, lucky both of us are mature enough to each give each other a lee way.
u know what. i appreciate tt. thanks. all of ours silly little argument didn't turn out into a fight.

anyway RSLC has quite a lot of movement this few days. but i dunno,
i'm starting to feel . . . how should i say . . . confuse.
many things they have done i don't really understand. and its like WTF.
but hmmz, at least Rovers is kinda well now.

i've a sudden urge to complete lotsa things. guess i needa try out the interview for work.
need those cash. woo hoo. imagine saving enough to go oversea trip like korea and japan with shan. woohahahahaz. and pen pen and guin guin (:
really excited about star cruise. any couple wanna tag along?
i wanna get driving license.
i wanna get power boat license.
i wanna get star 2 kayaking cert.
i wanna get rock climbing cert.
i wanna get first aid cert.
i wanna get saling cert.
i wanna get bronze life-saving medallion.
i wanna get DIVING CERT!!!

haha. shann better learn swimming ar. i dun want dive alone. ROAR!!! >.<

oh well. so much about that. and hey, here's a nice and meaningful story.
maybe it can be relate those that are going to investiture camp this saturday. jia you!

Shake It Off And Step Up

A parable is told of a farmer who owned an old mule. The mule fell into the farmer's well. The farmer heard the mule 'braying' - or - whatever mules do when they fall into wells. After carefully assessing the situation, the farmer sympathized with the mule, but decided that neither the mule nor the well was worth the trouble of saving. Instead, he called his neighbors together and told them what had happened...and enlisted them to help haul dirt to bury the old mule in the well and put him out of his misery.
Initially, the old mule was hysterical! But as the farmer and his neighbors continued shoveling and the dirt hit his back...a thought struck him. It suddenly dawned on him that every time a shovel load of dirt landed on his back...HE SHOULD SHAKE IT OFF AND STEP UP! This he did, blow after blow.

"Shake it off and step up...shake it off and step up...shake it off and step up!" he repeated to encourage himself. No matter how painful the blows, or distressing the situation seemed the old mule fought "panic" and just kept right on SHAKING IT OFF AND STEPPING UP!
You're right! It wasn't long before the old mule, battered and exhausted, STEPPED TRIUMPHANTLY OVER THE WALL OF THAT WELL! What seemed like it would bury him, actually blessed him...all because of the manner in which he handled his adversity.

THAT'S LIFE! If we face our problems and respond to them positively, and refuse to give in to panic, bitterness, or self-pity...THE ADVERSITIES THAT COME ALONG TO BURY US USUALLY HAVE WITHIN THEM THE POTENTIAL TO BENEFIT AND BLESS US! Remember that FORGIVENESS--FAITH--PRAYER-- PRAISE and HOPE...all are excellent ways to "SHAKE IT OFF AND STEP UP" out of the wells in which we find ourselves!

2007-10-24T00:27:00.000+08:00

sorry guys. i was really filled with rage that moment.

hiaz.

right now, going out of house is like returning home.
going home is like going out of house.

nvm.

at least i still have all my frens around.
thanks.

HOME is nothing but just a place for me to sleep.
i don't want your money.
i just want a little respect, love, encouragement...
all this year, i could say i've done quite a lot of personal achievement.
i got first in countless singing competition, i was top in the nation for running, my rank in the world was top 10, my result in studies at the end isn't that bad afterall, but what do i get? can't u just at least tell me i've done a great job? i remember once u say that and i'll never forget.

i just got my plague saying i'm the top Under 15 runner in S'pore. you said:"you think running can last you a lifetime, don't be stupid, u just got lucky."

my studies, PSLE and sec 3 result, it was not bad. you said:"chey, once only, no big deal."

pple always tell me, thats your dad way of motivating u.
HAHA.
ya right. i so damn believe.

anyway, sorry shann. i just can't find my bearing now. but i'll hold on. i'm not that weak, i'll keep coming back.

and hey, thanks guys, u just make me smile when i think of all of you.

i love my sp rovers so much. it has really change to be more heart warming. then last year. even though last year we meet up alot. but the feeling from now and last time is really different. everyone just really look out for each others.

and hey. i love you peishan.

smile andy (:
you will be going home in around 8hours time.

2007-10-18T01:04:00.000+08:00

back. was quite lazy this few days with everything on hand.

first. i want to thanks shann for my wonderful birthday.
you know what?

she give me a FOSSIL WATCH!!! lalalalalaz i'm so happy.

Thanks baby.
somemore she make bread and jelly for me (:
i'm a happy boy. then she make card card and stay with me through the night.
hehe. i'm loving it. ba da ba ba ba~*

rest of the rovers. not all. but all those dear one bought me a ZEN MP3 player. it was also OMG as well. i never expect that. haha. i thought they will give me some corny stuffs like a boxer or some thing that will sabo me one.

growing 18 was sure fun.

but i seriously find myself changing. in terms on how i view things.
haha.
maybe i've grown older.

but two things is for sure.

i'm still so crazy

and

i'm so in love with shann (:

2007-10-04T22:04:00.000+08:00

This post is intended to be for you, shann.

actually and really i understand and can feel how you feel right now.

so many things in your hand for the next few weeks.

firstly, i want to apologise for the part as a sub-comm head in ur DnD.

i somehow didn't really like take control ba.

sort of like a miss-communication.

but to put things in short, i was somehow at fault one way or another.

i can see that u're stress. really really stress.

maybe that results in you being moody and all those =(

but hey, i'm ever willing to be your punching bag.

andy=101% for shann to vent her fustration.

i really understand what u're stress at.

first topo coming. the pace course (dun worry k!). briefing. how to teach.

program run. take this and that. co-ord man power.

secondly, not to neclegt your secondary frens which i really agree that

they are important as well.

thirdly, DnD is round the corner, with lotsa loose end not tying up (dun worry k!)

fourthly, Project Rigel that suck-y thing that made all of us not enthu anymore.

with all your programs and stuffs. OMFG!!!

I say dun worry is not because i want u to feel relieve.

i know no matter how much don't worry u'll still be stress.

like there's an obstacle in your path that can never be removed.

know why i know?

haha. i was stress too! but that was over. u help me overcome it le.

so in turn i hope i can be the one helping u in whatever that i can.

one thing i want u to know which is my personal feeling

and opinion is that u've change alot!

which is something great.

Firstly, i can see u're charge with more goal and focus on what u want to do for this sem.

doing things which is systematic and things like going lecture. doig this on time.

u're more focus on what u want then before.

Secondly, u are able to communicate better.

Communicate as in bringing your idea brought across.

dunno if its all the program that u've done but i feel somehow,

u presentation gets better, and yepps. great.

lastly which is what i want u to know what u've change alot is your attitude to this relationship.

although u might sometimes shout and get piss off with me.

ur tolerance to me is higher le.

u won't just get piss off un-rationally on the spot and walk away.

and some more when it comes to "official" business we talk like working partners but when we are not talking about that we can change back again. that is really unlike last time.

loves <3

anyway, you're really great in a matter of fact.

able to cope with so many things at a go.

i think i'm only great with my mouth (:

thats what i use to get u right???

haha.

but yepps. just to let u know.

i'll be there when u need me.

i'm sorry if i've not help u in anyway.

but i'm really trying to relieve u as much as u can.

don't fret much baby.

i've a quote for you:

"What you get by achieving your goals is not as important as what you become by achieving your goals."~ Zig Ziglar

and you are in deed . . .

a stronger person.

2007-09-30T23:34:00.001+08:00

Morning went for recee. shoudn't have done all the squats and push up.

my arms and legs hurts bigtime.

anyway. that was a successful recee i would say.

went home and shann slept.

did up her stuffs and tadah.

while sending her off when she was up at the platform, i wave my hand say

bye bye ma. then dunno why, my ring caught my eyes.

walking home nothing to do. so was actually like looking closely at my ring.

hmmx, dunno why, but i just have a strange feeling.

took a picture of it. and dun you feel it looks real lonely w/o a finger on it.

dun wish to take it off.

i've got use to it. and the right place for it is on my finger. (:

anyway, happen to saw cheng's nick. hmmx. dunno what he's thinking this few day?
must be really low or something like that.
first one is there's no purpose
now is where i belong?
thinking back. did i really push him too hard?
giving him all the leading role before he can even enjoy?
dunno. maybe somehow i lead him to think of it like that.
thinking thinking and i suddenly tot of the gang that went up to genting.
look at the fun and the bonding.
how relax we were and things like that.
if everyday is like this.
i want a simple life. ha. but i guess it won't happen.
there's too much things that i can't like go.
not now.

Project rigel was getting more unmeaningful over the minute.
firstly what i tot of is. wth am i here?
secondly is still. wth am i here?
no one guide me do treasury. they just say. go take money. go sent in sponsorship request.
haha. if only it was just like this.
i finally convince myself over dinner time.
i'm holding on because of the APSN kids. wanna bring some joy in their life <3
and perhaps tt ada and shann plan the program so long and well ba.
i must try to do up my treasury.
hiaz. -.-"
oh ya. btw. its the first time i'm working in a project that doesn't need a Project Director de.
LOL. no wonder they say it will be a new experience.
no wonder...

i'm quite irritated by dad. i think he's in the wrong religion.
he should be a christian.
OMG. i swear he can preach better than the pastor.
it was non stop firing.
one fine day i think i can't take it.
hehe.
but this week must act guai.
friday camping out already. our prep camp.
again hiaz.
we do so much but again. its worth it.
and i promise this one will be even better x5 time more experience than backswoodman.

i need to catch some snore.

ha.

monday blues is coming. shit.

2007-09-30T00:57:00.000+08:00

morning was RIC again. sometimes thinking about it, i don't really like my skill sets,

but hey, i've got quite a number of good feedbacks though.

Phyical Training: hmmx, great thing is that me and shann are in-charge of it. easier to communicate. i have create a motto out of PT which maybe the following batch will follow:

"Quitting is never an option"

sounds cliche but its really meaningful . . to me?!? (:

anyway, i actually "fight" for less or no punishment for my instruct-tee from my PT session as i tell the rest that it will really be physically exhausting for them already.

if u guys have been reading, i really think u guys are great by able to take my PT.

i actually use my training back at those days when i'm still in national tracks.

good job guys.

Swimming: I love swimming and after having to learn that coaching lesson at YMCA on how to teach people how to swim. i'm really enthu about swimming.

was kinda dissapointed at the beginning. didn't manage to secure swim boards.

whats more. only 3 came for swimming. hiaz. but thats ok.

they generally can swim. just need tons of refining.

Scouting Knowledge: I'm learning as well just like u guys.

Every week on friday, i'll bring out my stuffs and do some revision.

haha. i'm not an expert. i just try to learn more.

try to get more info, so as to keep all of you intrested.

somtimes i'll think of it, i've actually opted the hard path by volunteering to teach every week if possible. but i just have one sentence, its worth it.

anyway, here's a picture of them building up a flagpole. haha.

look at ADA! haha. her hoisting line is tangle round her and its on the floor!

oh no!!!

anyway, was kinda please today. Xuan Jun is back. haha.

it kinda boost ur morale even to us as instructors. =D

anyway. after that was backwoodsman at the Rovers Arena.

i was arrowed to accompany the instruct-tees to there.

ok la. i dun mind. and haha.

it was really fun to look at the shock of their face when i tell them that it was a 10km hike.

especially melissa!!! >.<

we cook quite a number of stuffs;
choco bananas, egg orange, crabstick with tuna, potato, . . . many more.
above is the picture of my wonderful drum stick on the stick.
they all keep say that it is unhygeine.
LOL. backswood leh.

ta-dah. here's a picture of me.
(:

played fun-element at SB.
was block catching and it was so fun.
hehe.
Cheng and me end the game in like 10 mins.
aren't we fast?

i went to dear's place for dinner.
wahahahaz.
help her to settle on the topo stuffs. hmmx. it seems to be real fun.

thats about it.

tml meeting aaron at somewhere for a recee. wth.
its 0800 but as what i've said, its worth it.

ta-dah.

2007-09-29T02:05:00.000+08:00

just got a new change over. isn't it nice?

whatsmore! its shann's fav. colour

anyway, it has been quite an eventful, hetic and stress week for me (:

.......

first 3 day was our second F.O booth where

i think we did a super structure there just for "fun"

was quite proud of it as it was done by shann, aaron n me only!

but i think its mega crazy. it just stand there like a white elephant.

can someone just feedback to UNION that we don't need a 2nd drive.

haha.

those who want a club have already had one and those who don't . . .

will never will.

anyway, below is a picture of our booth. wootz.

Oh ya, before i forget. really would like to thank

each and everyone of you for taking your time off to just come down and LOOK at the booth.haha. you're effort is appreciated.

.......

Anyway. during this 3 days quite a number of things happen as well.

yepps. firstly was out daily gossiping channel where we will just go on and on.

but it really make us =D smile. thanks.

*evil grin*

and tues i think. Ken called for a mini Pow Wow thing.

was ready to handle the situation ba. it was like wth. no solutions.

i really dunno what they are thinking up there?

maybe they should have a meeting before opening this public talks.

and cindy was kinda crap.

yepps.

i tried to talk some sense to her hoping that she will at least have the faintest idea but . . .

oh well.

here it goes and this is why ada was piss off.

.......

As ken was delivering his speech . . . cindy was typing on her hp and showing ken her hp plus that extra smirk on her face. was really really irritating. following, while benji ask for a solution from ken, cindy cut in and try to explain some nonsense. so ada goes like: "ain't ken hosting this?" (anyway, its a form of asking her to shut up but i dun think she got it?) yepps, the debate continue and cindy cut in again, this time talking about the scout virtue of hers which she think is not in Sp Rovers and will cause a down fall to the troop, here it goes . . .

cindy: "do you all know about the scout virtue?"

ada: "do you know?"

cindy: "YES I DO!"

ada: "then tell me."

cindy: " . . . "

ada: "seriously i don't know. i'm like a scout for god knows 3 months!"

cindy: "then you expect me to know? i'm also not a scout for long ma?"

.......

anyway the story continues but that is basically the most "WOW" highlight.

it was like wth when u slap your own mouth.

and there's one more.

cindy: "scout virtue was not pass down by the Sp Rovers alumni, thats why."

.......

Hmmx, if scout virtue was to be passs down by the alumni, then i reckon

it to be known as the SP ROVERS ALUMNI VIRTUE.

oh yay. that sounds nice anyway.

ha.

.......

enough of that. tues was a fun day as well.

mooncake festival. hmmx. thats was like the first time celebrating with my gf.

anyway, it was lucky that i didn't have to attend my relatives funeral wake.

it was really bored. except for the eating part though.

we have quite a stumptous dinner at my house there,

wow. nice food i think?

and a nice walk down the park ending with fireworks lighting up the skies.

have watch quite a number of fireworks with shann le (:

that was like the lousiest but awwww, it depends on who you're with.

right???

.......

weds. mudane life.

.......

thurs. shann came to my home for jap project.

haha. end up she use the online translator to translate all.

but really admire her determination to continue and study. somemore is own $$$

leh. if its me, i'll rather spent it some where else.

i literally slept while she did her work. dunno why.

i was stress. but very very little thing.

i think i need a shrink.

gave me a nice massage before she left.

did help some bit. but i was still stress.

especially when i discover that my camera was not at home!!!

oh my shit.

.......

friday. which was today. morn have a nice tutorial.

that lecturer was kinda nice. but with an indian accent.

meet up with mei mei ada and do stuffs on ME.

hmmx. finalise quite a lot of stuffs.

gems i go with shann.

haha. manage to just change class like this.

hehe. happy.

and rovers is currently hook on Carrom.

woopiee.

.......

aaron is noobshit. haha.

.......

this week wasn't a great week.

didn't turn out to be what i want.

i want to live a discipline life.

i want to discipline myself.

.......

wake up tidy bed.

bath. eat.

go sch.

accompany shann.

go home.

bath. eat.

revise.

TV. phone.

slp.

.......

hopefully life can be that simple.

hiaz`

2007-09-11T23:54:00.000+08:00

Hmmx. haven't been updating my blog this few day.

attending UG confrence. will be updating on tt soon.

any way. we're like VIP.

was invited to this special ceremonial room.

thats where officer take their oath kinda thing.

its known as the OFFICER CREED.

it really inspired me alot.

especially the last two line

... I WILL OVERCOME ADVERSITY WITH

COURAGE, FORTITUDE AND DETERMINATION

I DEDICATE MY LIFE TO SINGAPORE.

those lines were so strong and impactful. especially the word fortitude. overcome with fortitude.

i want to be a NAVAL OFFICER.

i shall try my best.

no harm.

any way. enough of those officer things.

today 12/09/07 is a special day.

first i want to wish my cute girl girl guin guin a happy b'day!

1 years old le lo.

hehe.

really love you loads.

secondly is its 13 months being together le.

looking back.

i never regretted any moment with you la.

those fun times and maybe sad times.

but i nvr regret it as well.

i take it as a learning journey.

thanks for filling up my life with all this wonderful stuffs.

just this few words. can describe how i feel.

simple yet meaningful.

i simply love you pei shan.

2007-08-23T18:58:00.000+08:00

Genting Highland Retreat
Hi All,
Thanks for joining in this retreat session (:
i assure u nothing but 3D2N of fun and crazyness with us.
(aaron is gonna make it happen)
Anyway, here are some important stuffs and info to take note of!
Sorry, i may be a bit naggy and everyone is a young adult but as the saying goes; SAFETY COMES FIRST!
yeps. so those babes who have any fe-male related issues please contact pei shan (9298 3459) while hunks pls contact me :P (9770 0527)

Yours-in-rovering,
ANDY Ou-ch \(",)/

Package details:
2 way SIN/GEN/SIN by 26 seaters S.VIP coach
2 nights accomadation at FIRST WORLD HOTEL
Free 1 day buffet breakfast for 2 in a room.

PLS check-in at Golden Mile Complex by 2130

Things to take note!

1) Guys!!! pls check your passport validity if its up till 6months. if not. pls go to ICA and extend.

2) ALL!!! pls pls pls do remember to bring that important RED booklet a.k.a your PASSPORT. it won't be nice running home from golden mile.

3) This is when we're in malaysia. Remember the Rovering spirit i talk about? ok, it means look out for each other regardless of what. yepss. lets take care of each other up there ^.^

4) Pls at least inform someone if you're going any way up in genting. even small things like going to the toilet. I'm serious about it. i won't mind organising a search party up there but that won't be necessary. and yepss, rovering spirit, never alone k? we've 14!

5) Hmmx, its recommended to change sing dollar of 100bucks to Ringgit which is approx. 220-230Rm. bring some spare sings bucks too.

5) have fun :D and act like a lunatic up there. woohz.

Meeting Venue: Lavendar Mrt Station
Time: 2015hr
*bring jackets if u scared of cold. e bus is freaky*
*anyone dunno what to pack? LOL. call me!*
*try to be really tired. ha. its a 6hour ride*
*cameras =D*
*BRING YOUR PASSPORT!!!*
See you there!

2007-08-21T22:28:00.000+08:00

Silly baby with kids (:
Loves <3
oh! where's e body?
PenPen n Guin Guin

Tadah.
i blog again.

the pictures above very nice right? haha.

Love it.

Saded, maths i thing gonna forward.

Diff i go Integrate. siao.

meet cheng in den. want to pass up things then so suay.

Karen not in. haha. i think he suay la.

have lunch with him before going to dear house.

hmmx, talk alot when with him. haha.

funny.

anyway. i slept at her house la. damn tired.

whole nite study gone to the drain.

yepss. i think until now she is still studying ba.

haha.

went home. eat. wash. blog (:

cheng cheong owes me a coconut juice + a meal if my maths is not forwarded >.<

2007-08-21T03:06:00.000+08:00

Haha. Random pic. Cool right???

its me navigating a sailing ship leh.

and its really quite tiring to turn the thing.

not like pirates as u seen in movie (:

oh ya. i love the sea.

wanna sail with the special someone.

and two adorable kids

*wink wink*

today was sianz. reach sch.

eat. study. sleep. talk on the phone. study.

urine.talk on phone.sleep.meet ada. study. home (:

my stomcah pain pain la.

hehe. i think i need a special diet to slim down.

stoopid maths.

i'm studying till now.

pray that i'll freakingly pass.

and hey. genting is round the corner.

really look forward to it.

hip hip horray =D

2007-08-20T01:32:00.000+08:00

hehe.ourcampsite.
lalala. we'rewet (:
girlnmeonthetopofubin :P
sillyboyontruck :D
penguins *.*

today was ubin recee trip. haha.

was fun. and wet.

starting waitn for girl at tiong. me and cheng talk talk and watch show.

LOL. damn funny.

then went ubin. rain heavily and luckyily i'm VERY prepared.

took out a groundsheet to shelther us.

eat and we're off.

was rather successful though.

gots lotsa contacts.

went there walk. to campsite. nice and cosy. then walk one round.

almost died. and it starts to rain.

use the legendary groundsheet. all the way to a hut.

there my "be prepared" brought to use again.

took out sandwich and salmon spread. ate.

girl read potter while we watch DVD.

rain subsise and we walk somemore. aiming for chek jawa.

finally reach and the view up the tower was stunning! gorgeous.

treak back and halfway NPark give us a hitch ride.

lalala.

yepss. n we went back home safetly.

btw.

SOMEPEOPLE OWE ME A COCONUT JUICE TREAT (:

2007-08-20T01:17:00.000+08:00

oh yay. one year is up!

Finally.

Ani way, that was a super fun day.

morn girl was late. aiyo. so silly.

then reach house start treasure hunt.

LOL.

She miss out the clue on the bed.

so close yet so far.

anu way. she found her "present"

which was a white havianas.

aniway. it leads her to the real one which is a NUM baggy =)

now its her turn to give me le lo.

Woohoox. i secretly peek in and...

AHHHHHHHHHHHHH

OMG OMG OMG.

its what i want for a long time.

A brown BIG crumpler bag.

hmmx.i love it DAMN much can?

plus that scrap book thing.

so detail la. from you know me till now.

with photo and a nice hard cover.

Muackx. yay. i'm HAPPY!!!

after that went snow city. funny.

it was so cooold.

we play the tubing thing. then dear climbing up already dying le.

take photo and one of it turn out to be perfect.

lalala.

lastly before ending i threw lotsa snow at her. hip hip horray.

OK. then went science centre. didn't go to plan but we bought the package.

starting was fun.

but its kinda boring. lucky got u around. can smack ur ASS (:

take a cab home and its a mercs.

she slept and haha. end up she wake up late.

cause i woke her up late. tot of giving her more rest.

=PpP

went town. ate NYDC as plan.

the food was nice. and very full.

bought a red wine. intending to drink back home.

lalalaz.

slowly take a train back. then hehe.

played sims. wootz.

and of course with the wine.

was quite sweet la.

ending up cuddling to sleep.

nice anniv.

simply loves <3

\(",)/

2007-08-20T01:05:00.000+08:00

Hehe. . .silly penguins =)
On our way to celebration. woohooz~*
Slurp. . .marvellicous ^.^

2007-06-07T23:42:00.000+08:00

i love baby

don't you?

:)

2007-05-31T00:50:00.000+08:00

Dear, this is for you (:

When a girl cries it doesnt mean she's weak..If a girl cries in front of you.. it means that she couldn't take it anymore.

If you take her hand, she would stay with you for the rest of your life;If you let her go, she couldn't go back to being herself anymore.A girl won't cry easily,except in front of the person whom she loves the most, she becomes weak.A girl won't cry easily,only when she loves you the most, she puts down her ego.

Guys, if a girl cries because of you, please hold her hands firmly,cause she's the one who is willing to stay with u for the rest of your life.Guys, if a girl cries because of you, please don't give her up,maybe because of your decision, you ruin her life.

When she cries rite in front of you,
when she cries because of you,Look into her eyes,
Can u see n feel the pain & heart hurting she's feeling?Think.......
Which other girl have cried with pure sincerity,in front of u, AND because of you?

She cries not because she is weak,She cries not because she wants sympathy or pity,She cries, because crying silently is no longer possible,the pain, hurt and agony have bcome too big a burden to be kept inside.

Guys,Think about it,If a girl cries her heart out to you, And all because of you,Its time to look back on wat you have done, Only you will know the answer to it.Do consider it, Cause one day,It might be too late for regrets,It might be too late to say "im sorry"...

*********************************************
don't always think that youu are right all the times,
think carefully,everyone has a responsible for everything that they did,she may did something wrong
but who makes her do wrong

a girl always need protection
a girl always need care
a girl always need someone beside herto comfort her when she's sad
a girl always need support when she's down

all the needs comes from the guy that she love

not her frends that are always beside her.

guys, don't be too demanding.it will harm you in losing a girl that you love the most in your life.

2007-05-17T21:58:00.000+08:00

morning came and haha. was quite tired. wake up at around 0845 when my class is at 0900. wahahahax. i'm a piggy baby. ok. went for class.
hmmx. first lesson boring. then after tt call baby at 1000.

hmmx, was suprise she sound so awake!!! opps. actually is my mum wake her up. oh no. sorry dear dear. she ar funny. call her and sort of scold her. aiyoyo. really dunno whats with her. aiyo.

after tt its more class and yepx. maths was great. got this online test. heez. and i'm the one and only one that got full marks. woohoox. so tyco.
after class quickly go to den.
hmmx. dear dear wear quite nice leh. very nice. simple and great. the black shirt with the heart. =)

yepx. went for mee soto session. hmmx. the chilli was chiok man. yepx. talk talk and must go home le. haha.

yepx. i love pei shan baby.
really can't do w/o her. haha.
love it when she smile and when she do her bigigigiwoolala >.<

simply love it =)

2007-05-16T23:13:00.001+08:00

hi! yay. i can finally login to this stupid thing. Arghhhh. bish. keep jam. dunno what happen also? -.-"

today was a fun and tiring day. morning literally jump out of bed cause 8:30 le. then the whole class depend on my components for today test. ok. initially tot it was going to be very super duper easy but oh well. i did all the way till12 and its still not done and everythign was in a freaky mess.

faster escape class and chiong to meet dear. suppose to meet at 11 but. hiaz. sorry dear. ok. then i "hide" at the station for her to find but aiyo. she find me so fast sia. =) ok. then dunno why she wear until quite sexy la. haha. look sweet. heng i wear a long slevee and not shorts sia. >.<
ok, then we went to ps and watch a LOOK-INTRESTING-BUT-ACTUALLY-NO-LINK show known as bridge to terabhita. really no link leh. nothing mythical and fascinating. just some kids imagination. aiyoyo. ok but well. the one beside me was much more intresting. haha. my personal cushhie. so nice to lie on.

then after movie we went to shop. she complain tt i like to browse through shops too much tt i was not focusing on what to buy. haha. from PS walk till centrepoint i think?!? went walk around and so happen tt this flashy orange reebok sports shoe caught her eyes. hmmx. looks nice to me and yepx. she try and she love it and it feel comfortable so she got it =)
yay. new shoes. =D

then i think i've got to go off le. its like ermx quite early but. hiax. i know today go back late surely die one. cause sis flying off to shanghai and yepx. they surely want to eat tgt then hiaz. i dunno. i really feel bad. she's been like tolerating me le ba?

dunno why. i feel tt i myself like quite worthless. i dun have $ right now. sometimes even need to depend on her. my looks is like . . . not tt charming either. my parents is simply a pair of nosey control freaks. and i can't even give her what she want.
hiax.
i'm just . . . SELFISH? or maybe USELESS?
i dunno.

after lasttime the last conflict. our realation seems to improve alot. both of us tend to compromise more for each other. and i feel that she have been compromising more.at times i can't even do a freaking simple thing like pei-ing her to tiong mrt. how useless. she will smile and say to me. nvm its ok la. i've got my mp3 and yepx. she wave and smile with a bye bye but, i just dun feel good. its like i've not done what i should do as a bf.

thinking about last time i've quite a number of regrets ba. the biggest will be the whole of RIC. i really must apologise for what i've deed ba. u're in-deed a very strong girl mentally and physically but i keep assume that you'll be fine. at trainings i didn't really pay much attention to you. i know it hurts when the other part does that. sorry baby. i jsut want to apologise for neclegting you at that point of time. remember yesterday when we talk on the phone. i told u i was done but i think u've said something like i've done a good part as a president and something like that. it really really brighten and cheer up my feelings like . . . wow. yepx. praises from your loves one is something, extra-ordinary.

another regret will be the rambutan thing ba. hmmx. i hould have control myself more. hmmx, thinking about this make me feel quite a retard. hiaz. dun mention about it le la. but i felt quite embaress for that ba. some how make me seems like a total control freak.

i know you've been maybe mad or sad right now? but i know that by asking you what happen your reply will be nothing de. i shan't keep forcing you. you've told me before that if the time comes you will surely tell me de. or else it will be irritaing. but sorry dear. boy really at his wits end. with such parents. hiaz. i really dunno how to make them understand. at times they will sounds like they're willing to compromise but in the end, it falls back to what they want. what the fuck sia.

talking about studies. i've been somehow studying le but what i get from them is like aiya. oneweek only. fuck sia. u all can dun be like this de right? crazy fellow. what makes you think that i come back early i can go university. its how you balance time right? if just come back early can go uni i can straight away tell u i quit rovers evryday go home lo. siao!!! dunno how to think and listen.

dear. love is a two way thing. i'm sorry for being the one blocking our traffic right now. but yepx. promise me that you'll smile more k? simply can't live w/o you. honestly.

*ps i hope tt u'll reply to this or something like tt.

2007-05-16T23:13:00.000+08:00

2007-05-07T00:32:00.000+08:00

hello. I'm here again.
hmmx. yesterday the yesterday went for kayaking crash course. hmmx. its a very funny day in deed.

suprisingly i'm not late. haha. and then reach the area le see those year 1 kayak lo. actually get to kayak as well. hmmx, got a reason on y class managment is very important. then have lunch and try on spray skirt. one moment i'm in the water than suddenly i dislocate my arm. hmmx, i'll attach the photo another day. went to hospital and pay 80 bucks to learn how to put back. haha.

meet up with dear went to meet them back. thanks randy for bringing me there. yepx, then i forget take my ez-link from the centre. winston the skill improve le. can even scale the barb fence in less then a minute. haha. powerful.

went for pei shan didi the b'day. feel so bad. got a free meal again. shiok leh. quite close to her family liao. ma cham i'm . . . hehe. don't tell u. yepx. i guess i don't really like those kinda food. i think it is phobia ba cause i got a really serious food poisoning from there.

went back home and actually want to sch de but dunno what happen sia. it is cancelled.

so bo bian. me and baby so cute. i keep pull her to sit at the kitchen to plan. haha. the plan is so that we won't slp. then she run out and come back with her bolster. >.<>

morn wake up its already 10. i give her extra 30 mins to slp lo. see how nice i am! =)
ya lo. so we eat and go out. haha. so suay. so tiong plaza e GV spoil. wth. suay got until this point de.
we go try great world and yay. we watch spidey 3. its so cold in the cine. dear dear take care of me. so sweet.

after tt we go mac. have another roud of discussion and yepx. yay.

went home. she sleep on the sofa. i look at her half-way also fall asleep. finally went off at 6+

darling. thanks for all the care and concern you've be giving me. really love all those hugs and kisses. i'll give you a fire man lift once my arm is strong again. love you loads. =)

2007-05-04T00:01:00.000+08:00

its been a while since i blog.

phew, i finally got into to system after some smashing of the keyboard.

My relation with dear dear is picking up.
she's moe understanding than before and yepx, she understands my problem =)
we manage to avoid a number conflicts and i hope this sweet sweet feeling will never go away.
hmmx, thanks for all the "haha" and "hehe" you've given. love you!

ermz, 12th is again coming. yay. 9 months dear.
and its going to be in a cementry. hehe. see. how many couples get to spent their days there? >.<

princess shan shan. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you =D

will you marry me? >.*

2007-04-27T00:14:00.002+08:00

whooo
i love baby! =)
u noe?

missme?
hees

2007-04-25T22:44:00.000+08:00

aiyo.
this is blog is rotting like it neva rot before!
lol gettin smelly in here.

so i'm gonna make it alive.
since is for both for us. and for him too. =)

let me talk abt his life for this day
lols.
eh exco meeting for him.
think so much
having such a bad sore throat.
aiya. tml will have my magical pill le!
don worry lols =)

don sick le.
i need euu de.

event craze!
we 2 are going crazy.
lalalas
jia you baby

n i noe.
he loves me as much as i do! hahas =)
oops.

n i bully him more than he cant bully me
oh yeah!

bibi
noe this period will be busy and tough for both of us
but den i hope durin a day in the month, we can have some time together ourselves.
movie maybe?
i jio euu out.
or haggen dazs? tot i haven treat euu. can?
miss going out with euu!

love euu loads.
and euu noe i really do! :)
muacks.
tkcare!

2007-02-10T00:13:00.000+08:00

yay. see. i'm such a good boy :)

today was funny. and kinda lucky. morn go fc4 eat. find jane. then mum talk to her. hmmx, seems that they can click well sia. Aunty and Aunty. opps >.<>

after exam went to find honey. hmmz. i didn't want her to know i finish exam le. so i act ask her for dinner which she dun wan to trouble me to go all the way up to bedok. but well. i guess i'm a gd and nice hubby =D so yepz. i went there. found the way to sheng shiong w/o ease. then i act act again call her again. honey talk to me half way saw me. haha. the shock on her face is priceless.

honey today tie her hair up to a pony-tail, with those cute baby fringe in front. OMG. tts really sweet. cute. just like an innocent girl. I'm LOVING IT!!! eat mac with her. yepzx. i guess mayo = skin beauty product. next time i'll surely help apply mayo face mask for honey de =) ya. tt one hour was really nice. was so happy that i've met her. yepx. keep wanting lotsa kiss and hugs from her. yay.

hmmx. honey seems so happy when working. haha. tts great la. yepx. she's tt kinda of girl tt will turn back after she walk away. unlike ____. LOL. but tts sweet la.

i'll nvr fall for another girl.
never let u down.
never dissapoint u.

but

always love you. =)

hmmx changing my blog add is so tempting.

imagine," ilovepeishan.com"

hehe. =)

2007-02-08T23:18:00.000+08:00

hmmx. i've never really felt this kinda of feelings before.

those feelings. where u just feel like, tearing things right infront of u, jumping around the place, kick the door hard, scream your lungs out.

thats what i'm feeling.

but i can't let it all out.

dads at home -_-"

ok nvm. tts not the main point.
i ask myself. am i ever so worried for someone. till e extend when even going home after dark?
i keep telling myself its just going home but, y am i still uptight?
i can't stop myself from thinking.

from the moment i sent my msg out ask her what she's doing, i can't concentrate on every single things to do. i'm just, sitting down, staring at sums that i dun understand and hoping the hp to beep. some times i just feel so much to call, but am i being too . . . irritating? ok. i jus tsit and wait.
and then at exactly ten. i was so happy. i pick up e phone and call. half-way through. oh no. sucks. no more batt.

i was so fustrated. i want to the toilet, pull my hair, shake the sink. kick the toilet bowl; go to my room. jump on the bed, do push up, pull the blanket. doing everything to ease my frustration. arghhh...i just can't stop thinking about her.

i guess my love has gone over it.
it has turn to some thing more than <3>.

i'm going crazy . .

. . crazy over her . .

. . and i love it (:

2007-02-08T19:32:00.000+08:00

looking back at all those pictures. ahhhh. i really can't get enough of you.
so sweet. =)

ok, i think i've just throw a kinda silly tantrum just now.
haha. but i'm learning, trying to accept things that i couldn't change.

i was thinking to myself just now loads of things.
and lastly i came to this conclusion: you've always been faithful to me, why kick up a fuss?
yepx, this is something i learn, although i take the whole afternoon to understand. ha.

honey. you really look great la. thats why i'm worried in the first place la. yepx, u will naturally attract guys w/o u doing anything ba. so ya lo. and yepz, its not many times where some scenerio like this will happen so dear ar, i also need sometime to adapt. hope u won't blame me for being so silly this afternoon.

i really trust u.

our ring .

12.o8.o6___#

i'll never break my promise. Till eternity.

=D

2007-02-08T19:26:00.000+08:00

i just can't get ENOUGH of you :)

2007-01-22T04:42:00.000+08:00

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2007-01-22T04:39:00.000+08:00

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2007-01-22T04:35:00.000+08:00

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enjoy watching it.

here's a preview =D

2007-01-22T04:32:00.000+08:00

101% love :)

2007-01-22T04:04:00.000+08:00

arghh, i'm bleeding. my nose. it won't stop?
ok, nvm.
can't sleep well either, guess i really want to update this blog.
i felt kinda ashame of myself.
to keep this blog stagnant.
its meant to be something special.

ok, since the last entry, many small things have had happen that make big changes in my life.
Been trough te 24 hour survival quest with them. its really great. and i things that its not as tough as i expect.
hmmx, rovering has really brought me lotsa fun, joy and a great new lotsa experience.
club is reforming, things are changing.
will they ever understand what problems we're facing now? aren't we the one facing the challenges? why can't our opininons be express? or even impement?

recently dear's mum is in hospital.
i dunno why but it actually snaps me back to reality.
i started to understnad how fortunate i was. and i've been screaming at my parents all this while. =(
hiaz.
wake up go sch come home eat sleep. no worries. no housechores.
meet up with liyan.
got quite a talk.
she lend me a book. "how to be a better leader?"
it also talk some sense to me.
the most powerful one should be this.

leader comes early. followers see. followers come on time or early.
leaders comes late. followers see. followers late or never even come.

i realize that i've been often late for lotsa things. and why? why didn't i get this book early. futhermore. the waiting for election result is so long. so damn long. i've been dying to have a chance to change, change more things, have more say.

any way, i hope you have a really happy birthday celebration.
its not really special.
but i hope it'll always be in your heart.
the luge, havanas, coconuts, hammock, truth or dare, toilet. . .
i'll never forget it. thanks for making it memorable as well.

many things said.
little things done.
there's still more things in life i've not complete.

i think i really seriously need a change.

in me.

for the better.

and, it will always 101% love, not a bit less :)

2006-11-12T00:08:00.000+08:00

its been so long, i guess i should be blogging.
recent events was really very fun and exciting?
let me put it in this way, i've been going to school recently to work and not study.
haha.
Test is 1 more days. sucks. =(

tried lotsa brand new stuff with u baby.
ever wonder eating grass tgt? haha. yeah, we did =)
hmmx, and thanks for belaying me ya? the first time was really thrilling.
>.<
its been a long time since i last blog so there's really lotsa stuffs going around ba.
mabbie some more distict things should be the jelutong tower? haha, how we chase monkey and getting our selves drenched in the rain.

recently somehow or somewhere we usually get small tiffs. i guess? thats part and parcel of a relationship? but somehow, lets try to prevent it ok? hmmx, i guess my biggest mistake was to always be in sensitive of feelings ba. yepx. i'll surely note that. and u've got to voice out to me more ok? no worries. i'm ur silly boy. =)
mabe i should also apologise to u for all the past sucky stuffs that i've done.
sometimes i'm wrong to, nobody is perfect, neither am i. LOL.

hey baby, can i beg u something?
can thursday wear uniform with me? haha, it looks more formal.
and one more thing, i'll always be here for u.

no matter what. love you loads.

2006-11-03T23:32:00.000+08:00

muackz~* i lurvee euu.

2006-11-02T00:32:00.000+08:00

tears just flow from my eyes, i couldn't control it any more.

now i know what true love means.

true love = you

2006-11-02T00:07:00.000+08:00

my heartache when u show me the cold =(
i feel so much to cry, i'm still holding on...

i know that what i did in the afternoon was entirely my fault, i give up all my pride, i admit to you tt the problem lies with me.

but i know what i did was wrong but can u really forgive me?!? i just want things to be e way it normally is.

i know how u feel by just hearing the way u talk to me.
i dunno what to do now?

i feel so lost . .

. . without you . . ='(

2006-10-30T21:46:00.000+08:00

i'm sorry dear.

i really love you loads.
i need your love.

2006-10-30T21:37:00.000+08:00

i just want to make you smile.=

i dunnno why, i'm just so sucky. i can't make u smile. i dun even know what happen?
sometimes u're just so cold. i really dunno what happen?

is it because that i speak and comment without using my brain?
or isit because of her?

aiya..i suck la. sucks sucks sucks.suck bigtime.

i'm a brainless geek.

=(

dar for euu

2006-10-27T23:21:00.000+08:00

from the day i met euu
i noe i saw the right one
the right guy for me
it seem impossible for us to be together
but fate just pull us together

no matter how hard i try to struggle off this close relationship with euu
but it seem impossible
cause i have already tangled in these complex web of love.

how you ever try to touch my heart
how you ever try to make me happy
how you ever try to protect me
how you ever try to make me smile
how you ever try to hold me tight

the little things we do tgt
the silly one
the tough one
the funny one
the cute one
it seem uncountable.
even it juz a tiny thing we have do, it do make a great impact in my heart

and until i got euu
totally by my side
it seems long i noe euu.

i cant believe dat.
from april till nw, oct
i have gone thru alot with you that one had never gone thru before.

bashing forest
topo at cemetry
basic training camp
rover instructor course
kayaking
zoo
jelutong
chalet
cycling

i still remember every single stuffs u did for me.
cook for me
make honey drink for me
buy medicine for me

arrrghhh
i cant take it le. nw i'm a silly ger liao. not guai anymore. sorrie.

andy
i really love euu loads
i juz donno. it seem i have experience alot with euu.
i don even noe what will be the feeling of w/o euu by my side
what am i today if i'm not with you.
where will i if i donno you at all.
part of me. i really need euu baby.
my life
our love is unbreakable.
i do hope so.
thanks andy

iloveyousoo
ou ziqun andy
12.o8.o6

*deardear

2006-10-13T23:13:00.000+08:00

baby boo..

thanks for all the surprise that u've given me.
i'm specially touched with the 989+1 hearts u've fold out of straws for me and also that super gigantic b'day card.
hmmx..i really feel pampered..>.*

i love euu~*

hmmx..have dinner with my parents. haha. sorry worx..my jie jie like keep teasing u..kekez..jking only ar..thn as usual u look normal lo. haha..nvr like do anything funny.. >.<
yepx..
and ermx..i guess ur skill also improve le ba?!?

lol..

hot hot..

yepx..i simply love my 17th b'day very much and its all thanks to u dear.
luv euu loads.

...

baby, sorry if i'm too direct with my words :(
but its that i just want to tell u how sad that feeling was ba.
i hope u understand dear. i know u can. =D

ermx..thats about it ba.
remember to tell me how u feel ok?

-muackx muackx
muackx-

2006-10-12T00:33:00.000+08:00

Happy 2months~*

>.<

i'm the happiest boy boy on the whole galaxy.

2006-10-05T15:35:00.000+08:00

boo >.<
seems so long that i've just last blog..
kekez..kena scoldin liao le lo.

ok..this few weeks back really experience alot of new things with my darling.
=)
let me elaborate on one very special one.

ok..me and dear bash through the forest.
haha. not many couples have that kind of experince tgt de worx. =)
was really tired but hehe..fun fun.
thn got one part i piggy back dear across the mini swamp..haha..=D
ya lo..
thats really once in a lifetime experince i've ever had la. thanks baby..u're the best.

ok..thn yesterday went to dear de cscc event..she's the chair so go there support la. hmmx..i good horx..blehx..nbr show black face. but u're great too la. can see u try ur best to keep me company le. muackx muackx. i'm LOVING IT!!! >.*

later going to teach dear how to swim swim. kekez. hope she can ba.
yepx..

going back to me SPROG class le.
its quite fun after all.

lalalaz..thanks baby for all that u've done for me.
constantly showering me with your love.
=)

i love you. 12.o8.o6______*

loving you

2006-10-02T08:52:00.000+08:00

dardar!
thankss for treatting me the best! =)
i love euu loadds!
muackss

10dayss left.. wink*

dearr*

2006-09-24T12:38:00.000+08:00

it seems so super long tt i've last blog :)
ok..from 11th till 20th i'm having the IMF thingy. hmmx,didn't have tt much time to pay dear dear..

ok..Imf is basically like tt lo. always waiting for break to come. hmmx.got meet dear during tt few days. haha. yay yay. thanks leh. u nvr complain tt i didn't pei u so much. haha.
ok. thn i'm a good boy as USUAL haha..so dun have to worry. >.<

IMF over liao le. yo i dian dian bu she de la. haha. its kinda fun sia. still can wear the suit worx. not bad sia.thn after e last day go to rovers annual camp.
hehe..i got the bakpoh award sia. hehe..all thanks to dear dear and her a-hem. >.*
farnie.but act gay really very sucky. somemore the fake breast is like WTH!!!
ok. thn like tt lo. act gay disturb everyone..dear also buay ta han.
thn sleep with dear for 2 nights. gonna miss slping without u baby. =(
yepx. hehe..=PpP
i always snatch dear blanket or kick her to one side sia.
opps.. sorry dear. i bu shi gu yi de.
haha..
and thanks being with me all this while. muackz.

after e chalet next day RIC cancelled.
hehe..
go for the pre cycling trial.
was 50km but fun la. aiyo. i bang dear's leg. so sorry.
the rest of the pple is really OMG.
i think they lack of experience sia.so hiaz. can't blame them. =)
but yepx..i think u're great la. in all those sports tt u've learn.
nxt i'll teach u how to hop on bike le. yay yay.

baby..tml starting sch le..we must plan our time table for each other ya? muackx muackx =D
i love u pei shan.

2006-09-10T07:53:00.000+08:00

hi dear :)
finally back home ya? hmmx..really happy..super happy..thanks baby..u're the best..
that time when i return from cruise..dear already stand at the immigration there waiting for me le..haha..

ok..i'm really happy tt day..i just feel like screaming my lungs out..=D

i was really surprise..she bought me a heart shape cake..my god..it actually taste really nice leh..haha..ok..we went carls for our ermx..lunch cum dinner..and baby..i'm sorry..i was like super tired..slept for like only 2hours 30 min on board..so she pei me home lo..

ok..funny..i go home suddenly like not tired la..so disturb dear dear =PpP
thn she feed me the cake..and later she go i slp liao le..
alamak..really is drop dead tt kinda of slp..

yesterday was RIC..
i really stupid..take dear shoe out..put on bed say must take thn nvr take..omg..
thn sianz..need to take taxi back again lo..aiyoyo..
ok..RIC begin..not really tough la..fun also.. (=

thn dear going steam boat with pri sch frens..kekez..
i went makan with winston le lo..
hmmx..she said she's kinda piss during RIC..
wonder whats wrong?

ok..nvm..today is a new day..going out with dear in a short while..
yepx.. =)

PEI SHAN..thanks for all that u've done for me..i really appreciate it very much..THANK YOU..and i REALLY REALLY REALLY LOVE YOU VERY MUCH >.<

12.o8.o6~*

miss you baby!

2006-09-07T20:46:00.000+08:00

i mis you baby!!

dear*_

2006-09-03T23:43:00.000+08:00

zoo RAWKS..i love my silly girl.. (=

peishan..

2006-09-03T22:51:00.000+08:00

kekez..funny..we go zoo take picture of animals..
lol..
here feature two cute penguins..>.<

ok..this is funny..hmmx..yesterday me n dear dear went to the zoo..woolala..it was really enjoyable..really very fun..HAHA!!! ok..meet her in the morn..yay..she's really nice..meet me at lakeside..yesshh.. thn she silly silly go all the way to boon lay..ha.. ok..thn we meet up and haha..go to choa chu kang..

ok..go there we talke the bus..ha..bus journey i talk alot..lol..happy happy.. reach zoo le thn buy tix..thn go in lo.. hehe..wha..i tell u ar..i damn high sia..lol..dunno how to express leh..finally go to zoo with her le..haha..which is also in our wishlist leh..

yeppx.. we walk around at first..lol..tried to be a nice "dao you" lol..figure out that my GPS system abit siao liao..haha..animal show was nice..as usual got this crazy guy..thn got seal..haha.. thn later got elephant show..heex..ok..the baby one is relaly adorable.. i was really happy..i can see dear really hen you ai xin..as in she really enjoy herself in the zoo la..like those performance..=) .. her face was like fill with amazement..muackz..dear..love you.. hmmx..see..we have so many common intrest..>.<

ok..thn she feed the big big fishy..hehe..she super cute..haha..feed le thn keep giggling..lol..mummy comment about her giggling too..really sweet..geez..some more whole body will move one.. lalala..

live up to your name of "ZHEN DONG CHAO REN" =D

thn go have KFC liao le..i ate 3 piece,she eat 2..haha..we're piggy.. she also eat her food damn clean one..lol..so i actually tried to finish up my chicken to be as clean as possible..thn we continue walk half way thn rain heavily le..haha..i very silly leh..i say hide under tree..but soon..lol..the tree also dripping water le.. haha..we go to the children world lo..haha..see the minature horse..haha..keep wanting to kiss dear dear.. ok..thn we sit at the shelter there rest lo.. haha.. thn finally stop le dear dear want to see giraffe..haha..so we go there lo.. kekex.. i guess dear dear somehow like giraffe bah? cause she since morn keep tlaking about it le..

ok..thn it is the fun part..yay.. we go feed the babbon..lol..was fun la..they will try to get ur attention by doing back flips de..super cute lo.. but dear somehow got shock there..hehe.. she saw the babbon having intercourse la..thn she like stun there lo.. aiyo..my silly girl.. muackz.. ok..thn we leave zoo le lo.. dear dear treat ben and jerry..haha..woolalaz~* nice nice..thn sit there talk talk.. when we finally wan to go take bus thn we saw those coach for the expedition lo..so go kaypo kaypo and ask the uncle for lobang.. hmmx..sad..over budget sia.. ok..thn we go to pizza hut and have dinner..>.<
we eat the new one lo..which is the can pull one..aiyoyo..
not nice one sia..
haha..but nvm..got dear with me can liao le..

after the pizza we go and walk walk lo..was looking for straws..hmmx..dunno what she is up to la..naughty naughty arhx..
ok..thn finally its time to go home le lo..sent her back..thn tlak to her mummy abit..
hehe..actually wan to go high tea with thm today one but..got to find sometime with mum ba..yepx..so tts about yesterday..

dear dear..thanks for spending ur time with me ya? hehe..i'm loving it..time really flies when i'm with you..muackz..love you..

ok..today morn..so shuang..i wake up at 1130..hehe..pig pig..but dear dear later..
thn erm..i nua lo..mum also wan to go high tea..ok..at first got one..but i end up go nap again..thn its like till 1530 le..kekez..so i sugesst i treat CARLS JR to mum..haha..went to suntec..show her the IMF thingy..lol..she is like so funny..ask so many qns..
hmmx..today go out with her nice la..many things to talk..
cause long time actually since i spent time with her to shop and talk..
yepx..we talk about dear dear also lo..hehe..thn she suggested want to go genting anot..haha..she ar..always like want to go hols de leh..even genting she also want..thn i say can bring one more..haha..*wink wink*..thn she like provided her mum allowed la..
ok..talk to dear..but i guess a later date ba..thn her mum will also fang xing me and her..

ok..thn reach home le..now juz blog finish..hmmx..got to disturb dear le..

and dear..so sorry that i have the world bank confrence..i will pei u as much as i could..at any point u feel neclegted just feel free to tell me k? i see what i can do..=)
muackz..
i love peishan..

2006-08-31T23:44:00.000+08:00

today was really happy..get to see her after such a long long time..
=X
4 days for me is like..hiaz..

i dunno if its my problem or what..
am i being too over sensitive? am i being ridiculous?
am i controlling? =(

i dunno what to do la..

hiaz..dissapointed..

nvm..

2006-08-30T08:20:00.000+08:00

hmmx..finally..i've got the time to blog le..
now i'm so freakingly tired..
ok..let me update about monday..=)

monday morn wake up first thing is call dear le..
hmm..she's goig for camp sia..somemore is training one..
regretted yesterday at my house nvr help her massage once more..=X

ok..thn talk until i was about to late le thn go for my IMF training lo..
hmmx..its was really fun la..as in we sit inside the confrence room like when i work banquet how i serve pple like tt..lol..still got coffee break and whatever..haha..now i'm the one reciving the coffee =)
was missing her like mad in the starting so yepx..decide to keep my mind occupied..
my group was nice..pure SP breed..no others..and we're under Panpacific..

hmmx..thn i ask a very good qns to the speaker.."can we volunteer more? doing at pp for 3 day is kinda of pointless!"
haha..yay..then everyone was sorta happy and impress?!?
nvm..i've got the shuang feeling..
ok..thn i so silly..go take one short video sent to dear..wahahahax..super silly can..

thn recieve news tt y2 dad got admitted to hospital..quite serious la..
see him cried..aww man..went there with ivan,jie and jojo..
hmmx..i dunno y i just took out my bible and pray..(:

so yepx..stay until quite late le thn we go off first le lo..
ok..nxt day morn..meet jojo for breakfast..
reach there help her identify pple..hehe..she too short le ar..
>.<
as usual..all those talks..seminars..haha..after lunch was fun..
amazing race round SISSEC(suntec)..wha..like a bunch of crazy la..
end up 7 among 26 grp? hmmx..not bad le la..
still got role play somemore..wth..=)

ermx..meet up with jie and thn go tgt with jo for dinner first at carls..hmmx..treat jo cause..opps..i've not wish her happy birthday..sorry..=/
she love rose thn yepx..get her tt as belated gift ba..lol..can't think of any other stuff le..
kekex..i guess i'm too last min..
thn went hospital pei y2 till morn lo..
my god..so freaking tired la..

ok la..nvm..now say the funny part..
ok..at 5:15 took a cab down to SP lo..hiaz..i keep walking here and there just trying to catch a glimpse of you..but i can't..thn i saw many pple walk from the sports hall there to club house ma..thn i hurry down there lo..
i intend to wait along those benches de but yepx..dun have..
i think i juz manage to see dear's back..
ok..i waited..i saw them PT..my god..
i'm not worried anymore..it will gonna be a piece of cake for my dear..haha..
so slack sia..
i think i've also mange to see her back view? i'm really not sure...
yepx..so leave SP un-contented ba..there's something missing in my life..

i guess its u peishan..

hmmx..tml ba..get to see u le..muackx..
miss u terribly..=)

2006-08-27T15:50:00.000+08:00

aww..tired..i'm so freaking tired..hehe..
leg pain sia..just finish runinng AHM..OMG..thn the whole leg like cramp there like that!!!
ok..nvm..skip to yesterday..

morning is the swami home thing..ok..its sort of slack so hehe..its ok..=)
dear even tried her best to pei me and i can see that..thanks dear..love it.
dear went up the stage to sing song..haha..super funny la..
thn tounge stick out here and there..=P
cute cute..

ok..thn finally go le lo..take cab home..hehe..hope u like my ai xin mian bao..kekez..
even tough its kinda thick..haha..like very kiasu like tt..
reach home le..was really tired..haha..
my parents are great..i close the room door say we sleeping thn they never go open le..(:
so yepx..we sleep lo..looks so sweet when she open her eyes and..,"huh..y are u looking at me?"
sweet..>.<
thn yepx..both of us have had succed in our plan..lol..dou dou superman and zhen dong chao ren was transform..=D

its was really great..i appreciate it. =)

ok..thn we went out to dine with my parents lo..
dad cook quite a mini feast..
with garlic herb prawn to dear's fav. ---> sotong (:
tt was really nice of them to do that..thanks dad..
and dear..hope u enjoy the dinner ya?
ok..thn she bath, i bath and we pack up and go meet the rest at cityhall le lo..

ok..reach there le we decide to watch snakes on a plane first..
heex..
its was really nice..super high..and funny? haha..
Dear is controlling me in the cinema..kekez..
thn also got go arcade play game with dear..haha..time crisis was really a crisis..and u're so pro in tt pressing game la..my god..scare me sia..=]

after everything is the wee hour of the morning le..
so we camp out at esplanade first..
dear sleep on my lap..heex..and i didn't dare to move..
so end up i just stare blankly at the sky or marvel at what cute pretty face she has have..(",)
my tighs "ma" diao after tt but its worth it..
so when she wake up its also about time to prepare for the run le..
do warm up and squeese our way to the front..

finally it flag off..
was sort of reluctant to chiong off without dear..
but..i needa try my best la..
so i go with ben..first 10 km its was super fine..with avg. 5 mins per km..
thn ben drop off and i run alone..
it was also fine..with 6 mins per km..
but thn at the middle of 18km..i actually tried increasing the speed and poof..
both of my tighs was cramp..
and it sort of straighten your leg on its own and i fell..
ha..lucky got those barier..or else will be very malu..
the red cross sucks..squeese me the tiger blam thing..
hai my eh-hem also super "la"!!!
ok..in the end i complete the last 2 km with 2 5 mins..
hiaz..saded..

finish the run and after i've cooled down..walk over and find dear..
oh man..she's in pain..dunno her leg got what blister?!?
=(
i den sleep sleep until like dunno how long and thn its time to go eat le..
yepx..after eating go home again lo..
mum was as usual funny again..ask..
you want to sleep on my bed? lol..
if i did be straight with my reply i would have had said..
erm no..i want to share with her. =)
haha..sleep again lo..
this time too tired to even give a peck on her forehead and we both fell to deep sleep..
haha..
wake up le and yepx..just sent her back home..

hmmx..3 days and i can't get to see you..
u really must take care when in camp..
thn i'll fetch u during 31st..
dear dear..i'm in love with you..so in love..muackz..
shi jie wei yi de ni!
liew pei shan..dear..
ae..just take care and miss me la..=P

i love you..

2006-08-26T20:49:00.000+08:00

dardar.
lyin beside euu is so great..
lying on ur chest is so warm..

sorrie dar.. for not pei-ing euu.. n sometime disappear w/o telling euu during swami visit..
thanks for being understanding aso. euu are the best! =)

i'm so fear of losing euu..

*dinner is very delicious! =)

dear~*

2006-08-26T00:58:00.000+08:00

dardar
i don mind looking aft euu forever.
=) my everything~! muackss

thanks for the different language of i love you!
you are really really great!

thank you dar! countless of it~!
i don wann euu sick!

n it okie.. don sorrie okie..
i don1 hear sorry from euu.. =)

sorrie dar.. for being so quiet at phone..
i will jia you de! if u not happy muz say wor..
i noe u tryin not to disturb me.. i love euu much!!

12.o8.o6____*
euu are juz the one~ aishiteru!

2006-08-26T00:42:00.000+08:00

today morning went to have breakfast with mummy.
hmmx..i've got problem with my stomach..
hehe..
thn pain pain whole day..
Thanks dear..u're sweet..
help me rub rub..still 3 times somemore..
yay..
now i'm finally starting to fart fart le..
Wahehehex..
great..its like giving birth..

yepx..maths was ok ok lo..first paper which i was busy scribbling sthrough..yay..got sense of sastifaction..
hehe..thn after tt meet dear again..
go den thn she go her cscc thingy which i join in later..

i'm so sorry..
i'm so freakingliy quiet..i guess i dun get use to seeing u but being tao from u..
hehe..its ok la..i know u've ur thingy to do de..so dun care about me ba..i'll try to click through..dun want u to worry..

thn went dear house le..have dinner there..haha..
love tofu very much..woopee..
got medicine and rub rub from dear..great..=)
thn go collect pay..hhaa.tml finally got money to use le lo..>.<
so yepx..reach home arounf this time le lo..

Dear's busy with her cscc thingy..lalalax..
jia you worx..dun be stress out ok? i'm here for u..
muackx..i'll love u.. :)

hope u like the way i said i love you pei shan in different languages..wahahahax..
120806___*

2006-08-24T22:00:00.000+08:00

"simply can't resist ur kiss~*
i love you

2006-08-24T21:46:00.000+08:00

Look..how cute penguin is? wahehehex..
*hidden meaning*
lols..dear see this le i tml surely kena da pigu le..=P

morning went to have breakfast with mum..
ha..
thn go sch take econs textbook for dear and go her house lo..
at first got urge to take cab one..but ya..anyway..i must save..
reach tiong le thn tot of dear need ration..so i happily go buy first lo..
haha..
end up she want tin one..>.<
so thats for me le..

hmmx..reach home as usual..teitlies super high again?
haha..am i really tt sexy..lols..
jk jk..
today dear is awake..studying somemore..
good girl..=D

but i reach le end up we're turning machine..haha..
mine no power..lol..
i guess i'm sick?
ahhhhh..down with flu..=(
but great..dear take care of me the whole day..
she study while i sleep beside her..
thn she go out buy liang cha for me which i didn't even know..
aww..u're so sweet..
i love you..

thn lunch was also simply so great..
dear's mum cook porridge..
thn dear make honey..
lalala~*
i'm loving it.. (",)

thn yepx..she study whole day while i sleep whole day..
geez..funny..and both of our paper is tml..
haha..
yesshh..tml meeting her again..taking part in her cscc activity..
ok la..tts about it lo..

thanks for taking care of me for the whole day yeah?
muackz..u're the best..

12.o8.o6_____________#
wo ai ni

2006-08-23T23:00:00.000+08:00

hi hi..today i went to dear's house.
my god! i'm addicted to taking cab to ur house le lo..lol..
die die.. xPpP

ok..reach there tietles dunno y so high sia..lol..maybe i too sexy le..=)
ok thn hmmx..
sweet sia..wake her up..wahahax..give her muackz on her forehead..hope i can do tt for u every morning..>.<

dorry worx dear..i today didn't manage to turn on shivering machine..hehe..
i'll try it tml..=P
today no energy..

haha..thn go make my first atm card..lol..
excited sia..thn withdraw money to watch movie..kekez..
click..
ok la..i admit tt i was touch by e movie..tried not to cry..haha..
dear..family is important ok?
and i'm part of urs too..
muackz..i love you..will cherish u de..=)

go back tried studying..
got a big sugar dear in front of me..yay..
so i got sugar rush..feel like going to sleep..
end up i sleep while dear dear lie down beside me to study..
>.<
sweet~*

wakeup thn take cab go home..yay (",)

I LOVE YOU..
LIEW PEI SHAN.. :)

2006-08-22T22:47:00.000+08:00

it will be get intact.
never will it experience a crack or brittle to things.
i love euu sooo
u are really deaar to me dardar..
muackss

dear*

2006-08-21T23:57:00.000+08:00

yeah..today was great. (:
morning i finally manage to wake up early.
hehe..thn i went to dear's house.

woolalax~*
thn someone still haven't wake up leh..geez..so happy..can piak her pi gu >.<

ok..have lunch at her house thn went to sch le..she have meeting so i study in den first which she join me later. my god, when she's away hen xiang ta leh..hmmx..how am i goig to survive e cruise trip? oh my tian ar..

we went for lunch at KFC..i tot i have enough..lol..so end up we're portioning food..heex..tts sorta sweet also leh..everything half half..funny funny (:
thn suppose to continue study but hehe..was gossiping with mei and xue min. wahahax..dear got a problem..keep suaning me..roar..lol..i'll angry ok? =P
thn if i angry i think u're going to die of laughther le..

;) *tickle tickle*

so thn i sent her off to work and i'm having exam.
sad sia..can't go work with her today.
don't know if she's alright anot neh?

dear dear ar..i'm gaining lotsa trust on u liao le..hehe..
muackx..
hao ai ni.. (",)

tts about today le ba..tml going to get to see her in the morning..yay..
woopeez~*

2006-08-21T00:26:00.000+08:00

hehe..dear dear at my house today.
muackz~*
i lurvee euu! =)

2006-08-20T22:46:00.000+08:00

i still trust euu.
100% dere.

no matter wad!

2006-08-20T22:43:00.000+08:00

dat silly boy i haf
i still love euu damm much..
but den.. i stil feel suan suan de le. lols =P

i love my silly boii!

2006-08-20T22:42:00.001+08:00

=)

today was really great..yay..went to collect race tag with dear..>.<
hmmx..excited leh..we bring our newly bought bag along too..haha..oh man..its so sweet..
lalalax..

enjoyed her company as usual..we talk, laugh n of course standard..i DISTURB her..yay! go there thn my hp bill surely burst lo..call thm to ask for ic..hehe..thanks dear..u are really a great sect. (:
ok yepx..thn we take cab back home lo..wahahahx..got into one funny cab leh..lol..see dear..its another "di yi chi" again leh. yay.

ok..reach my house le..
mum was funny..hehe..she i think forget shann coming..thn at there keep nagging at my sis..haha..thn she saw shann le thn she quiet down..lol..farnie leh.
hmmx..dear as usual was really great..
super polite and sweet..
my room table not enough space for two to study so we end up sitting floor and study on bed..haha..keep screaming about to make myself not fall asleep. >.*

lunch was great..
cause i cook one ma..hehe..
cook her pasta..lol..and we have rojak, coconut and vitagen..geez..thats a super healthy meal worx..
Dear ar..ur lips peeling leh..wet ur lips more ok?
thn go back to study..and wahehehex..
dear dear..

3 times worx..ain't i great? yesshhh..muhahahhax *evil grin*

ok..i manage to understand chapter 12, 13, 14
thats a great feat leh..left with 3 more chapters which i think i'll be really choinging tml..
my god..must do well..die ar die ar..
thn around evening le sent dear back home le lo..
yepx..so today was just..fabalous..12+ hours being able to look at tt cute face..

pei shan,dui bu qi worx..i cried today =X
twice somemore, i'm so sorry but i can't help it dear, i was afraid to lose u. . .
hmmx..ok..i'm fine now..dun worry.,
abt tt things, i can understand what u are feeling now..i really do understand..i just hope that time will change everything ya? but i'm a change person and u can take my words for that?

u are my EVRYTHING.

ermx..thats abt it ba..smile more ya dear?
wo ai ni (",)

2006-08-20T22:42:00.000+08:00

2006-08-20T00:25:00.000+08:00

juz plainly sitting wif euu is already enuff..
being wif euu is really heaven to me..
more than enuff!

i love euu so dar!

*dear